patients vs patience

fer 2 days i overall in charge... mi patients take turn to bug the hell otta mi... so much nonsense.. feel like murdering them.. now mi 2 cubicles all ortho patients n full of nonsense patients!!!
2 drug abusers hu half the time tok rots n irritate mi...
1 juz did op n has so much of complians n nags worse than a woman...
he will do stupid things then tell mi he bleeding la .. pain la...
hu ask u move so much after major op in the leg...
another will lie down there n wants to be seved like his a king
another i think wants to b a part time nurse... ownself connect n disconnect his antibiotics... go n off plug himself claiming its not straight... n wen i told him off he say its a small matter... all the more i feel like takin the biggest needle to poke him... then he noe the pain of settin plug... bum!
he is not suppose to walk cuz the bone is very weak n gonna cause him a fracture n the op site to bleed.. tell him so many times... stubborn man... kip walkin ... then i just tell him.. "later bleed u dun come to mi"
irritating rite u tell them dun do then they do... then bleed find missy..
he goin fer another op n oready say cannot eat he go n eat biscuit la drink water la... then wen tell him cannot... he telling mi can like as though he docotor!!! nonsense la he want to die ine the op table issit!!
they dunnoe wat they r doin to themselves...
another hongkee fella hu is a big time pain in the ass... refuses to go home..
but he oni complains bout the doctor.. but bugs our life...
n last but not least the jungle man... we all call him that cuz he is a dirty fella hu never takes hiz bath.. n stinks big time
complain of pain but the minute wan to smoke no pain ...
complain of pain then wen gv medicine say dun wan
if not sometime crawl like sadako out of his bed
one of the noisiest patients... then again,, most of mi patients noisy
sometimes they make mi sp issed off i feel like crying
they behave like its a market!!!
haiz im trying very hard to show patience towards them
but seriously all i wanna do is murder them...
ahgghhh!!!!
lucky i off tmrw... frens comin over... hope they dun lay mi out.. i will murder them hehe
well tmrw is another day.. thank god no work
im goin on nite soon ... i shall wat gonna happens hpe i hv fun...
merry xmas n happy ner year guys

do they noe its xmas time at all..

hey whadya noe.. xmas is in the air..
on the 25th the day was fun n mi house was pack n hot ... mayb too many ppl thats y..
mi frens came
so happy to see em'
but man was it tiring doin the entertainin
cut mi bday cake
yes ppl im 21
wow n prezzies hehe
but go work
was afternoon n overall in charge
but okie the day past well
tmrw oso oops i mean today... its oready 12.40..
afternoon shift
though i was pretty much disappointed wid someone fer not coming
i realised its no point getting angry
hu is he anyway...
wateva f*** la.. got no comments..
try to enjoy life
21 oready.. mus do something
but dunnoe wat la
hehe fer now
enjoy xmas!!!
n new year juz around the corner...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY...
mi new year resolution :
to be happy.

better to slp

i guess its better to slp at home next time...
i went shoppin today...
seriously.. its difficult to find a dress i like... way beyond mi budget to spend that much on a dress..
ended up buyin some sphagetti blouse...i dunoe i like it cuz its simple n mature... at that point wen i buy it seriously jus looked nice n a must hv... take it back home n i got the complains... takin turns to tell mi how low it is.. it doesn't look that low to mi though... i guess i shall burn it..
haiz throughout mi years oready i listen everything... at a point of time ppl grow up n try diff things... mayb i should juz stick to wearing t-shirts..
they bttr not complain animore then
want mi to look womanly... but this cannot that cannot...
aiya wateva..
ask mi buy skirt ... i buy... short??
go to all the shop the skirts r freaking short okie!!! unless i buy long skirt...
to mi it dusn look short... aiya dunnoe la... i dun wanna shop animore..
i think im stickin to jeans n t- shirts n long sleeves...
soon i will wear like the muslim ppl (no offence). cover everything up...
cannot stay out late... cannot overnite.. no to chalet..
canot wear this... cannot club... cannot cannot cannot
frustrating...
y did i even bother...
might as well sleep... much better....
now i must change wat i want to wear fer xmas... i think i noe.
buy a freakin t-shirt
lets see hu complains then

4 more days to xmas

man 4 more days n i hvn finish mi shopping la!!! suppose to go celebrate a fren bday... like shit the person wen missing as usual... wateva f ***.
then i had a backup plan noe'in these things happen... sadly it backfired.. mi fren stuck at work...
n now raining...
i nid to shop n nobody free
n im dead tired...
4 more days to xmas n im not prepared....
worst i actually can sit here bothering to wait fer mi fren to kol mi out fer his bday... wasting mi time...
wan to slp but too tired to slp... n mind too busy thinking shit as usual...
achievement fer today... i set plug n took blood..
aiya im trying to ammuse miself..
wat bothers mi the most rite now is
unfinished shoppin... i yet to buy mi xmas clothes..
haiz.. then after that go back work n yes im spending new year in hospital... nite shift! count down in the hospital...
well something diff n new n can't b helped..
i wish i was out shoppin... wasted mi good time entertaining ppl
damn it...
n well 4 more days fer mi to finish mi work...
got 2 shop fer xmas presents n clothes
clean mi cupboard
clean mi shelf n bed
clear away all mi junk
wrap the presents
put up the tree
n still hv fun on mi bday amongst all this...
well i'll survive... somehow

another meanin to life?

wat hv i been up to?? nuthin juz work
today i was so dead bored n everybody not free to mit mi so i made plans diff... i brought mi mum out fer a movie (i dun do that often by the way)
we went to watch the DESCENT. scary!!! it scared the shit outta mi... damn... but the movie nice.. din reali get the moral of the story till mi bro told mi the moral.. its bout animals hu stick by fer one another n hv compassion but humans behave compassionless n animal like
i do agree... that many of us r like that...
sadly
i met mi ex patient... hu is the one patient hu i did care alot fer.. he has quite a sad story n suffered alot of pain throughout the hospitalisation n a very very nice patient...
n happy to see him discharged after almost 3mths of hospitalisation
saw him on mi way to work... happy to see him get on well..
i nvr forget those times he was olways in pain n even times wen he gives up wants to suicide.. i feel happy that i did manage to tok positive thinkin n that rite now he is livin much better...
its such small tings we do that help others that create meaning fer the job im doin...
n i dunnoe if i will ever continue this job or leave it... seeing how stressful it gets n no one appreciates u fer the fact....
which can drive mi nuts n think its a shit job...
rite now mi life??
i have no plans.. i dunno wat the hell im gonna do in the future..
wer to go ... wat to do..
i reali dunnoe
rite now its juz frens n work n family
i work like crazy.. hang out wif frens wen im free... wat else??
i reali hv no plans.... meaning to life???
dunnoe used to hv a meaning to life..
now i juz want to search the meanin n dun waste time feelin sad..
now not as sad but well... still not sure wat i want in life...
or wat i want to do...
n shit im goin to b 21.. haiz growing older...
n i hv yet to discover meaning to life..
i counsel ppl well but a sad case hu dun live by wat she taught others...
i wish i start doin that..
n i wish i know wat to do with mi life...

do u noe the meaning of BORING!

thats wat im feeling rite now... bored!!!
chattin online wid mi frens.... so damn bored...i dun even noe wat to write cuz theres nuthing to write....
so there... mi boring blog entry fer today... how exciting...
im still bored...

no worries no worries

haiz.... today morning shift... i do 1 big dressing until back pain...
tmrw off. so happy...
but dunnoe wat im gonna do though..
macam no life
haiz... boring.... argh!!!!! reali bored la... dunnoe wat to do to spice up mi life
ideas somebody!!! go work come home bathe eat n slp.. wen free go makan wid fren or watch movie... nuthing new... hmm... mi ward busy as usual... i so scared they take mi over to renal.. i dun wan go... cuz got alot indians at mi surgical... scared they take mi over that side... i pray they dun.. if they do i will cry... reali....
haiya dun tok about work always stressful...
but if i start tokin bout mi life then i oso get stressed...
aiyo... no difference....
hmph... do wat tmrw??
watch movie i guess... how "excitin"..
must go cycling.. i wonder if i still rmbr how to cycle...
hmm... mus kip miself busy... if not i too stress till i hv to go imh
eh there are nurses go imh ( as patients )...n i dun wan to be 1 though... must enjoy life till the last minute.. hu noes skali the next day i die.. dun wan die wid regrets... so moral of the story dun waste time getting sad n crying jus kick ol the stress n worries n b happy..
no worries no worries..
i wish i followed that advice... i will try though.Have to.

damn nursing!!

i wonder if im getting paid to get scolding!!! wat the hell.. after mi annual leave n im goin back to ward today... tot it was gonna b a gr8 day.. yea rite.. hu m i kidding... nonsense..
it was all gr8 until at about 6 plus wen mi collegues patient's son walk up to mi n asked if his father has gone fer an operation... n then i juz replied it has been cancelled.. he asked mi why but i can't explain y cuz i dunnoe y... i did not take the kol n im not in charge of him n im not updated about him so i realli dunnoe y.. i said im not sure but i will ask mi collegue to tok to him.. n he started yellin at mi... refusing to let mi tok.. he kept yellin n making scene n i din noe wat the hell to do... luckily mi fren from the other cubicle help mi sort it... even then he is not v pleased... wen she n i go to the tearoom n ask mi collegue to tok to him cuz its more better fer him to explain to him.. but he refused to do so.. he was sleepin n claimed its his break... so !!! does that mean its okie fer him to hv his breakin while i bloody hell take the rap...worse still no one kol n told the patients son it was cancelled... mi fren helped mi to settle it n i juz apologized that i reali could not ans him..mi fren did not want mi to get a complain letter fer something i din do so she helped mi... bless her good heart.. but im so angry wid mi collegue hu refused to help mi n juz wanted to cover his backside...
ii was so irritated i went fer break.. force miself to eat.. then i told miself im taking the full break... i felt so down n moody after that...
then wen i went back out n served medications... mi another patient hu is mentally ill scolded mi in vulgarities fer nuthing...
he kept shoutin chibai.. trust me.. man i was temted to ask him y his mother dun hv issit... rude but wat the hell...
he kept yelling at mi until i pass report finish... he say u shut up.. dun tok to mi n make nmi fed up.. he reali crazy.. one minute he joke wid mi n so nice.. next minute he yell at mi.. n the worst thing is i orady served his psychaitric medicine oready n he is like that.. i wonder if he ate it or threw it away.. cuz if he dun take it thats wen he goes bonkers...
i felt like beatin him up... it reali spoils mi mood.. n i felt very depressed..
i got scolded fer nuthing...
is this y i joined nursing.. to get f**ked by patients! m i even gettin paid fer all this shit im taking!!! im juz so irritated that i feel like quittin this job... i m counting down 3yrs... i can't do this fer life... cuz at the end of it i will become mentally ill n stressed out!
tmrw i morning shift n have to face it again... God noes wats goin to happen tmrw... juz bring mi thru the day n im thankful..

bloated...

i ate so much today... n i was suppose to be dieting.. haiz...
i went to mi cousin house today n saw mi 2 nieces n nephew... v cute.. they hv grown up alot... one lost weight n the other two put on... had fun .. then mi n mi cousin go walk walk around hougang mall n chattin bout life n laughin at ppl... a peaceful day n most of the time spent yackin n jokin...
today is mi last day of annual leave n im goin back to work tmrw... hmm sad... i wanted to slp more... i noe im being a pig.. lazy la..
happens.. if u work like mi
but waitin fer mi off on wed n thurs..
work... so much politics... i hate it wen ppl put a luffin face but do the otherwise.. damn them.. nvm ... i will survive..
jus look forward to off i guess... haiz... work tmrw... i dun wan to go!!!!
drag miself to work... n now im gonna go slp.. n face mi tiring life again..
here i go again...

weighty issues

n mi sista n brudder r fighting at the back.... nonsense... i dun like it wen ppl throw tempers.. sadly i realise i do that to...
man i gotta grow up in that sense....
but throwin tantrums is good... ppl will noe u r angry n juz buzz off... i dun do that to everybody thou... mi frens dun reali c this side of mi.. mayb cursin n swearin yes... but not tantrums... onli do it to mi loved ones... hu else can we do this to hehe ( n im proud of that) hehe
im on annual leave n i can't believe that im actualli siitin at home... again ... today...
go tekka (again) haiz....
i jus realised today that man i put on an awful lots of weight... n its startin to piss mi off... im gonna lose weight again even if mi gastritis pain kills mi.... thanks to wonderful attention of painkiller... okie if mi fren read this they will definitely murder mi wen they see mi...
they say i look a healthy person now unlike last time i look anorexic.... did i?? i dunnoe... i miss those days wen mi tummy were flat... n fats were less visible... the day i met mi one fren... i started bloatin... frn 44kg to now a 49kg... i took gr8 pains to lose weight frm 56kg to 44 kg... n now i puttin on....
cannot cannot... must lose weight... n i shall.. wen i do i shall publicise hehe.... i hope im not becomin crazy...
i sit at home i kip thinkin of certain things i dun wanna think of...
but if i wanna go out i get nagged at
past few dayss so stressed out until i juz wan to go somwer n release all this stress....
haiya... if god has a hp i will definitely call him n ask the ans to mi questions.. questions i nid ans to fer a long long time...
cuz moving on is not that easy after all... n i wan to move on
but i can't~

im back....

im on annual leave...
im SUPPOSED to b enjoyin but im rottin at home... y?
cuz mi best fren is down wid tonsils
mi close fwen in thai trainin
mi other fren all workin shift...
every1 so busy.... so m i wen im workin la...
so happy to b out of ward fer now...
so chaotic n busy... nvr finish work
so fast time past... i work fer 5 mths oready...
how much i saved... nuthin much
i wonder wat i do wid mi pay la.... last time broke now oso broke
hehe
mostly because of mi stupid hp bill
at work kena nag by the oldiesin the ward.. work wid em v the f***in stress
esp gt 1 old lady.... i wonder do all single womean become like her
so grouchy
she rarely smiles n if she does she looks even more freaky
n she has a face of a bull dog la..... realli...
but she can b helpful thou ... depends on her mood... it changes at a blink of eye.. thats y i stay far... very very far away frm her
i wonder hows ward? hows mi pt...
but i dun miss ward... so tiring go work
im counting down 3 yrs,.... definitely runnin away
i wish i din join nursing..
but some times i feel proud to b a nurse wen i achieve something
but its till a job which will send mi to grave.... not easy n stressful
so much politics.... ol i noe is nvr trust anione but urself
at home mi parents nag at mi to do housework n learn cookin
mi stupid fren can force mi to learn cookin.. say i mus go the house n lern frm the mother....
y muz i learn cookin!!!! learn n cook fer hu
mi mother kip sayin cook fer mi husband in future,,, hu say i gettin married?
i miself dunnoe if i will get married...
will i ? onli god noes..
then thers the thing bout saving money...
im tryin.... reali tryion.. jus dunnoe y it finishes at the end of the month
hehe
save fer hu? mi future weddin... wat oni...
mi parents reali tryin to get mi to b responsible... but too bad they kip tryin n i kip runin... i will b responsible if i ever find the nid to
i will commit to such things wen thers a reason
i dun hv a reason to do all this fer now
savin ya okie its a must fer rainy dasy... the rest.... c how
firstly let god show mi wer mi path of life is headin n get5 mi ans to questions i nid then i wil decide.. till then i will enjoy...
now wan to enjoy but no fren to accompany.. how...
aiya the best thing now is slp...

watch gonna do wen it all comes back...

juz wen u think life is gd... tings happen.. life is very unpredictable... bt learn frm lessons.. take tings into stride... n try to be happy the keyword is try...
work is as usual STRESS spelled in capitals... the day im overall in charge is the day i go home late... i reali can't cope 15 patients all on mi own... i can go crazy...scared ah b alone...so many mrsa patients in mi ward... nurse's r walkin germs...we carry bacteria in our body.. loads of it..

kitchen is under renovation... so poverty strikes at home... no good food to eat!!!! everyday outside food.. sick n tired of eatin at coffeeshop... home cooked food is the best... no wonder i lost weight hehe

so long never go church... mus go liao...

im goin on annual leave!!!! 21st nov to 27th nov!!! so happy... im helpin to clear someone else leave... but all the same... go on leave... yeay!!! break frm work... temporary that is.. better than nuthin

im gonna do a portfolio.. courtesy of mi parents... bday present 4 mi... so excited.. waitin oni...

deepavali comin...i lucky get mi public holiday... can go visiting..

c! so many things to b happy about.. so i shall not let one ting spoil mi mood or make mi sad...

p.s. since renovation alot kosu kadi (mosquitos i mean..)
hehe till later tata...

huff n puff n blow the man down

n i tot blowing was easy...
today was mi bcls n yes i passed... jump fer joy... but mi throat hurts damn bad all thanks to the blowing.... i needed 3 attempts to actually pass the damn thing... mi compressions were beautiful ( **ahem ahem** wat can i say... beautiful person gv beautiful compressions... makes no sense rite... nvm..)aniway i had a hard time givin mouth to mouth resuscitation to the mannequin... so hard to blow.. n i blow so hard n still not enough... finally i manage to pass... a just pass fer mi blowing.. jus nice i gt 3 mistakes in the blowin n we were onli allowed to hv 3 mistakes.. thank god.... but seriously.. mi compressions were good... they were all at the same depth n timing... not to praise miself but wat can i say... im good... but not wid all this blowing thingy....
pass bcls oready go back ward relak oni... many staff n nuthin to do... so basicaly today is 1 day god is so kind to gv mi wer i get paid fer doin nuthin... ain't it gr8!
now waiting fer pay day... counting down....5 more days... n im rich again fer a few days then i will b poor
again.

bcls tmrw

yeay its mi off today..... mi bcls tmrw... n i hv not yet studied fer it.... stupid la.. can nicely gv mi 8 to 4 shift rite... they unfair... aftrnoon shift.. so after bcls in the morning i mus go work!!!
so sian.... n rite now i playin this maths game thing wich is driving mi nuts...wa so long nvr mit mi best fren... later goin to makan wit her...i wonder hus afternnon wit mi tmrw... hope not mi preceptor... stress...
hmm wat i hv been up to.. nuthin much wen fer onnam at mi aunts place... then out as usual....nuthin much... but mi preceptor mouth ah... very suai... full of curse n swear.... no wonder she not married.. or isit she not married become like tht?? morale of the story... if not married at least hv a scandal..heh

v are burning....

n wen was the las time i updated mi blog....
im alive!! yea rite like the ward does not drive mi nuts.. i hate ceklists cuz u hv to get all those stuppid stuff signed by the deadline... n mi preceptor very the .... spoil mood one la.. the min she start work till finish work she will be cursing n swearing so even if i try to hv a gd day she will be so kind and spoil it like she usually does... everytime i work wid her i get v stressed up...n she's the oni collegue i will not kol by name... i call her staff nurse.... not reali respect... juz scared... like wicked witch of the west... she oways hv a frown on her face n she stares at u like her eyeball gonna fall out ani moment.... but wen she gt the mood to teach she will teach properly.....
haiz... mi 1 pt hu oways kol fer us and ask the time n date... that indian muslim old man.. discharged oready.... n the ward is quiet la...haha
hmmm wat hv i been up to lately... nuthin much ... juz goin out alot till mi mummy nag at mi fer goin out alot n usin mi hp alot.... but y ah.... we pay our own hp bill but still kena nagged at fer usin the hp fer too long.. hehe... yeay today n tmrw mi off.... so happy...im goin out! hehe mi mum is gonna nag as usual... ya la ppl ask her go out she dun wan... then dun wan let mi oso go out... unfair tau..but the funny thing is she will not ask mi anithing or complain to mi directly... she will nag at mi sista fer mi behaviour( i pity her)... then after that mi sis will nag at mi...haiz..... so sad yesterday i take mc... sure mi pay cut 60 plus... sad sia... mi doctor summore scare mi say i gt gastritis n if still dun get bttr i mus go scope.....
aiya aniway rite now im proud to say im living a happy life cuz i no longer waste mi time sittin down n worrying....i jus enjoy mi life to the max n do wateva i want... life is so much more peaceful that way... there's oni one big problem..... how to tell mi ward sista that i hvn finish mi ceklist...man... im in fer some big time shit...
oh well.. like i dun c enuf of it in ward....

lazy

tmrw is mi iv test n i hvn study.. can't study la... so irritated nuthin goin in mi head... i think i confirm will fail sia.. how to pass wen nvr study sia... mi fault.. supposedly i spose to study but some idiot fren kol mi go online in the end aiya dun say la.. i hate ppl makin use of mi... mcm 7 eleven... *u** la waste mi time oni... aiyo dunnoe la.. this is getting to mi head n i hvn study.. worried sia... dunnoe la i wan out frm nursing... i can't take the stress god help mi.....!
someone...

3 yrs past fast can....

aiyo so tiring... yesterday afternoon shift never go break... busy like crazy... by the time finish work n go home wattime oready sia... then today mornin shift... damn sleepy... today oso busy like shit.. din eat... finish work late summore... left ward almost 5pm sia.... hungry n sleepy but still wanna go out... made plans to mit mi best fwen to buy present fer a close fren anniversary... skali she awhile later kol n tell mi nid to go makan wid her family... but its orite... she oways ther weneva i kol aniway... cannot tahan ppl say wan to email mi n din.. waste mi time cekin oso... like i gt nuthin better to do... haiz later go back ward muz rush n do mi plug settin n bld takin.. how sia.. pray hard i lucky each time i do.... shit la dunnoe muz finish by 30th this mth.... die la.. mi iv test on fri ah.. hvn study oso.. lucky tmrw rest day..haiz.... tired ah.. feet hurt... 2 patients compliment a few of our staff plus myself.. feel so happy... usually it stopped oni with a thank u... mus learn to kip mi mouth shut sia.. tell 1 person n dunnoe how the whole wrold... haiz... difficult sia like that in the end blame me.... frm now on juz kip quiet n evrything say dunnoe better la.... haiz tired.... feeling so drained physically n mentally... no wonder hair dropping sia.. i waitin .. 3yrs later bttr quit nursing la... shit job.. tiring ah...
hey n i saw jasmine today.. she go pierce her nose... dun look that nice la... aiya her face aniway hehebut happy to see her after so long... k la.. gonna off the comp n go slp.. no one's online to chat wid mi... nuthin to do... no one wan free yak wid mi oso or mit mi... so i shall juz lock miself out of the world ~ sleep!

mi feet hurts.. some1 massasge pls

man today such a tiring day.... oni 2 nurses today.... no en or pca or students... one man show... run around like mad dog... n i tot i could b a happy junior today... so understaff... no time to eat or sit.. that busy.. lucky awhil later i had students come in... if not i tell u i dunnoe wat i will do... today mi fren gv mi heart attack.. tell mi that muz finish mi bld takin n plug settin ceklist by this week.. gv mi shock sia.. i hvn sign mi stuff... die la... i hate ceklist!!! make mi go crazy..
haiz... tiring.... mi bed callin mi... i would hv juz gone straight to bed if i wasn't expecting an email... damn i din recieve it... waste mi time this ppl... nxt time dun wan to layang oready....
wa mi roster mcm shit... reali rotate mi shift like wat oni... mi sat aftrnoon... sun n mon morning n summore sun i nid to attend mi dearrest fren chalet... haiz gt iv test n i hvn study..... aiyo.. n mi hp dunnoe wan to change not... siaow oready...aiya aniway not like i getting kols or wat... can wait la.... muz save money..ya rite.. i waiting fer pay to go shoppin actuali hehe
well basically its not ez to b a nurse.... i think they shld increase the pay hehe....
or at least gv free massage every 2 wks ah....
n mi feet still hurts~

n life goes on

day in day out... mcm routine life.. go to work then back then bathe, eat slp then life goes on the same way.. if off go out if not stay home n rot... man sometimes i feel life sux.. n im bored to death but do i hv a choice.. ever since the day i told miself to carry on.. thats wat i've been doin...
i feel more peaceful at work... n sometimes mi pt juz make mi luf... yesterday i help wid resuscitation n i bag the pt till so damn tired mi hand cramp sia..
somemore now 7th month oi...
i hv this pt in ward n he's well sort of confused.. indian muslim old guy la... he very cute la.. tok to him sure luf cuz he tok nonsense.. hehe he olways luv to reach fer his mug of water n then end up the jug will topple to the floor.. so normali i will put his locker far frm his bedside so that he can't pour water down... n he will kol hundred n 1 times n ask to put the lockeer nearer to his bed so that he can pour water on his own... n talkin to him n answering his question can tire u but he reali v cute la make ppl luf... he comes up with all kind of weird questions n does all kinda of weird things... haiz.... these pt's make mi day much more than someone else hu should b doin tings to make mi luf... i dun c being a nurse as a long term plan... its v tiring n stressful.... but we'll c wer it goes 3 yrs later
aiya im so tired... 3 days off... n lets see wat im gonn do... hv fun i hope... catch up on slp... n most importantly... study fer mi iv!!

happy national day

yeay its national day...
hehz.... like as though mi bday...
so long din come up... now workin n in charge of patients.. damn tirin... i enjoy work cuz its stressful n kkip mi mind out of mi problems...
i worry lesser... hmm but pretty much the same.. waiting fer god to shine the ans to all mi unsolved question n riddles in mi life... n i will wait patiently fer that day... n guess wat!!! i learn to cycle!!! i wanna take bike licence.... but c how la..hmmm tire la wan to slp ... update mi sad life another time eheh
nitz

im tired... physically n mentally

im feeling so tired..... i feel like goin on hibernation mode.. sleep n not wake up....tired...graduation is in 2wks time...reali looking forward to it... now i m gonna b workin shift so no more sat n sun off... i wonder y im a nurse...i wonder how long i hv to wait till i get an ans...waiting is so so tiring.. maybe thats y im tired.. think too much... im so bored... lazy go work...today i pratically juz slept... mi mum's bday today.. thats y so good stay home... tmrw tot wanna go out... but seems like everybody is too busy... well they hv a life...time pass either too fast to cope or too slow that i dread every second....if only i can rewind back mi 3 yrs i would not take up nursing.. maybe a 8 to 5 job so that i can still kip up with mi social life.... do something....im tired... so moral of the story... dun think too much....i need something to happen to boost mi energy level....
i nid redbull in life...

wat shld i do?

i hate being depressed...i hate feeling lonely... i hate it wen ppl say they will call but go missing... i hate it wen ppl say things they never meant...i hate it wen they leave u in the lurch in times of trouble.. i hate it wen the world turns upside down... i hate it wen i dunnoe wats goin on.. i hate it wen i dunnoe wat to do... i hate it wen ppl make mi cry...i hate it wen i can't stop crying...i hate it wen ppl u trust breaks ur trust.. i hate it wen im being made use of fer personal gains... i hate it wen i can never find a solution to problems.. i hate it wen i kip getting problems after problems...i hate it wen u can find peace...i hate having a burden in mi heart.... hate it wen i can't face up to mi problems...i hate trying to be happy wen im not...i hate it wen i bother but the other dusn't give a 'F'.. i hate it wen others b happy after causing mi pain... i hate wats happenin rite now... i hate being helpless... i hate not knowing wats happening....i hate being miserable...i juz hate beind so sad n not able to lift miself up.. i hate it wen ppl juz kip hurting mi again n again... y is this happening...suddenly i hate mi life...
i never felt like this before...
and i hate this feeling.................
hate it even more that i can't make all this go away!

guess hu's back...

back again........ finally... lyke dunnoe after so long i got on blog... man its tiring... juz started job... been lyke 3 wks oready... currently on mi foundation programme so i gt no shift... morning shift all the way n sat 7 to 11 n sundays mi off... mi last off on 17 th july.. aftr that shift liao... haiz... learnt alot of things n still gt alot of things to learn.. so happy finally someone taught mi exactly wat i can do n wat i must noe.. n the orientation by a staff naz... thanks to her. reali... i gt transferre to 64 surgical.. during prcp i was in 64 renal... its so long since i went surgical posting so im lyke no nuts... going crazy cuz i can hv all kinda cases n i hv to noe how to care fer them... but right now fer first 3 mths im doin junior job.. hehe but getting staff nurse pay.. ain't it fun or wat....but well everyday come back so tired that i juz knock out after mi bath n meal everyday.. macam no life... like as if i hv 1 animore... mi frens are gonna start work oready.. n i hv 1 missing fren hu can't b bothered to kol which is praticali driving mi insane....never felt this lonely before... hv u eva had so much of frens bt yet feel so lonely....like there's no one fer you??that's how im feeling... i can't get rid of this feeling... so i pratically slp alot if not go out.... felt so stressed n depressed that wen i gt mi pay the 1st ting i did was to shop n shop... felt damn good to finally shop again...n mi fon bill in lyke 11mths was lower than ever... shockin... mi frens now y....y is life like that?? its like i get to b happy n juz wen im happy it suddenly taken away...n like i dunnoe if i ever get it back.. ever lost a thing u like so much n can't fin it.. the feeling can drive u nuts... mi exact feeling....haiz...i wish i could hv a wish so i can wish wat i wanna wish.. can i get a wish??haiz... rite now i hv no life... work frm to mon to fri n come hme n bathe n slp... boring.. i noe.. sat after work come home bathe n go church.. if mi fren free go out if not rot at home again.. the same goes fer sunday....i wld hv a life if someone jus kold....how long im gonna b like this? wen im gonna b happy again n wen the 'test' ends... only GOD KNOWS...

wats the truth??

yesterday i went to mit mi dear fren... she told mi something she found out abt a fren.. n its very upsetting.. but wen i did confront bout it its another story.. mi fren will not lie to mi.. i trust her alot! but the other 1...i did trust alot.. but wen i read those msgs in her fon..it reli hurt mi feelings..i really dunnoe wats the truth.. n i wish i knew... mi fren so stress over mi problem until she smoke again.... stressed up over mi problem n something i confessed to her.. i dunnoe if im gonna b blacklisted...i reali don't... 1 ting i learn is think b4 u do anything n oways kip ur eyes open..i dunnoe if wat i found out is the truth.... gd person? bad person? i will let time n god decide... i hope gd...i dunnoe if i can handle it if its bad...i wish i can c in the future n noe now so that i dun hurt miself n c mi fren sad over mi....wat is the truth.. someone tell mi pls.

hu m i?

i dunnoe wats goin on animore... i dunnoe wat to trust.. wat not to.. well finally i read mi daily bread n felt at peace n finally slept in peace again. well today.. i dunnoe if wat i did was a mistake by calling... ppl say i dun understand... but the problem is they dun understand.. getting scolded.. telling mi to face the music.. i tot we were supose to help each other n get each other back... i tink wat i did was a major crime ( ya rite) if i tell this to anyone or mi frens tell mi this problem i oni can say y they wanna make a big fuss..haiz.. m i reali that childish.. seriously m i?? i dunnoe the ans... in the end i finall decided to juz leave it to GOD's hand.. HE noes best.. everything happens fer a reason.. i dunnoe y its happening now.. but i will one day.. well but at least i noe now that wen there's a problem no oint telling this person cuz im on mi own although we were suppose to help each other... u noe a whole year later... the anita back then wld hv juz thrown everything obstructing her life n get on wid it.. i changed.. i 4gt how anita used to be.. its time i get a grip of miself.. its time i get back to the old anita.. jovial, happy n enuf of worrying... learn to b stone again... at least i dun cry animore..i hope i noe the reason fer goin tru all of this..

a world full of lies

it's so hard to trust ppl in life.... i had a fren whom i trusted so much onli to find out she was full of lies and was bz spoiling mi name outside while suckin up to mi n meeeting her fuckin needs.. wen the truth was out 1 day i cut mi frenship wid her.. i hated indians n din tok them or mix wid them much... after almost three years i finally started mixing with indian ppl... i learn to trust ppl again... i trusted someone so much.. much more than i expected... n feelin cheated again.. ending up in tears.. is life always suppose to suck this much? sometimes i wonder y i put trust in ppl again after goin thru so much... y ppl fake n make u trust them oni to hurt u time n time again..wat the hell do these ppl want?? make use of mi! its hurtin to find out truth u dun wanna learn.. i feel so so cheated... wouldn't the world b a much much better place if ppl jus stop lying n treated u like human n dun cheat on u.. wat they r forgetting is wat goes around comes around. the person may cheat mi now... but GOD is watching...

unfruitful day

this is the shortest eva... i di nuthin much today. i slept thru the day... n i hv a big feeling im not gonna fall aslp tonite (again)..someone tell mi mind to rest please.

buildin mi life again

title sound as though i goin thru a difficult time in life... well i m... hmm... i hv to learn to get back to normal instead of being depressed everyday.. as if being cooped up at home wasn't enough.. well went out with mi fren isma to buy mi sista bday present.. well i gt her a mp3.. n well mi pocket gt hole liao spent on that thing... she better b thankful n appreciate mi fer getting her that ting.. she loves songs aniway... n schl is a long journey fer her... well she still better appreciate mi... im officially broke.. haiz.. how money flies..hmm... well nuthing much aniway.. the same..
i wonder hows mi fren getting on in nuh... GOD DO BLESS HIM FER A SPEEDY RECOVERY...

birthdays...

well mi dear lanlan bday yesterday...had loads of fun...met them after church.. sadly mi stupid sandals kept biting mi!! lucki mi mi frens brought the plasters..wen mit them we went to hunt her present n eventualli bought her a jacket she wanted to buy las time at u2.. so we after she came ... we pretend to go shoppin n brought her into u2 n asked her wat she tink bout the jacket.. she gv us heart attack.. she say she dun reali like it.. so all of us panic n ask her to try skirts.. and after deciding on a skirt we had to kip passing her clothes to make her kip trying the clothes... u noe y... cuz we need to stall her in the dressing cubicle while the others swapped the jacket bought earlier to the skirt... wekept passing her clothes n she nagged that she's tired of trying the clothes.. n the sales assisstant told us not to hog the cubicle cuz there's a queue formin... ya a long 1 hehe... well the swap was done..then we watched a movie... the five children and it..a very sweet movie... then we were sittin at mac n waiting fer 1 more fren wen grace accidentally blurted out the secret... we were cutting her cake at swensens... meant to be suprise.. well i gt irritated n made noise..n she seemed guilty..n looked as if she gonna cry... but she kept saying no... haiz then i felt guilty fer makin her wan to cry.. hmmm... then while waiting to be seated at swensens.. grace n joyce bought her a g- string i happily asked them to get a red one hehe... we put it in a bag... then after cutting the cake .. we asked to close her eyes n take it out... wen she took it out we snapped fotos n she sort of shocked.. hehe... n gt alot of glares 4rm the ppl there eating at swensens.. kaypos. then eat the cake not filling ah... so mi n asmah ordered rodeo wings.. which were yummy by the way.. lanlan had deep fried mushrooms n joyce n grace ordered fries.. well first tings first the service at swensens sucked big time.... our food was there except fer the fries.. n they waited fer almost 30 mins plus leh!! joyce gt so angry she scloded the manager... n well well wat do u noehe rushed out the fries n gave a 10 percent discount... but we still wrote a bad feedback.. their service reali sucked mah! then we makan liao.. rush home.. reach home late ah.. ah well hu cares .. i dun do it oways...i had fun though.. after a long long time...

finalli!!! i saw the sun again..

ya.. like being cooped up at home was ever fun.. staying at home was so damn boring... n i was goin crazy with mua brain workin overtime.. thanks to mi dearest best fren hu was free... thank you v much isma.. we went out.. gt mi sis bday present n went back to tmp to watch a movie... n bought a skirt.. its so long since i like wore a skirt... i tink im gonna wear it on lanlan bday gathering.. well at least i went out today n smell the air again... gd to be out again.... well mi dear fren at nuh.. confirmed diagnosis that its a cerebral abscess n well the brain is pretty much infected with leakage of fluid to the brain surroundings.. so right now they r tryin to find out wers the leak.. well at least he can eat fer the past two days.. apart frm the icp wen sit up too long n standing he can still tok a little now n then... PRAISE THE LORD.. at least now we noe wats goin on.. i hope he recovers fast... 1 mth hospitalisation more... haiz hope time pass fast... i pray that God will work his miracles...yet again.

boring......

its sos so boring... im dying in boredom.. sitting at home is suffocating mi along wid all the other things bothering mi in mi mind.. ppl at home sleeping is mi past time but seriously i do that to run away frm thinking of mi problems...its the best.. slp n it will disappear that is until i wake up...now i dread sitting at home cuz all the more im free n think nonsense.. if at least im out i do things i tend not to think too much.. well mi frens do hv a life of their own n i can't possibly impose on them... everybody is busy...i.. i dun wan to go out with any fren i hv cuz they will ask mi hows life n some questions i dun wan to ans them fer time being..haiz.. fer now sit at home n rot i guess.. gr8 way to spent mi holiday.. well i made plans to actually kip mi holidays busy.. but im in no mood to enjoy all that with a fren in hospital.. i prefer to jus lie low though i noe i can't be doing this 4eva..i dunnoe... i will survive.. i need time... we'll c wer this goes.. chao.

y mz ppl fall sick

a very dear fren of mine... having brain infection.. haiz.. i feel sad that im not able to help.. suffering in the headache, weakness, nausea , no appetite, n can't hv bright light n hear loud sounds.. i really dunnnoe how to help.. the stupid lumbar punture results not back yet.... i dunnoe the possibilities might b cerebral abscess, or it could be some spinal cord damage cz all the symptoms round up arnd ther... n the only cause factor v have is that mi fren had a bad fall rit eon the head... i dunnoe wats gonna happen rite now.. but things are not looking good currently... i hope everythingk goes al rite.. i dun think i wan to c a critically ill fren or death.. no thanks.. i won't be able to handle that...God bless mi dear fren...muz get well

flu bug n money

i v sad..... i gt the blady flu!!!! n its here again!!! every mth kena flu... y like that... aiya n i wanna go tekka makan tmrw... how to taste the food with the sense of smell n taste gone!!! bugger! tmrw gonna mit mi once upon a time dance grp to get together n makan... n secretly celebrate mi frens bday..hm... yuck the thick pleghm in mi throat stuck n not comin out... i noe ppl hus reading are goin gross...ppl b realistic.. u noe ol this happen wen ur sick.. haiz... oh ya!!! i GOT B+ FOR MI ATTACHMENT RESULT.....woohoo... so happy.. never expect to do so well.. like v rarely.... so irritated.. i spose to mit mi dear frens on fri n they push it to next wk.. wanna beat em up... oways say mit then push to other time...monkeys... n so irritating wen ppl go missing n dun kol u....mi hp bill like shit as always... n this mth i gt 4 bday present to spent on... so basically this mth i caan't shop!!!!N I ACTUALLI WAS WAITING FER PAY SO I CAN SHOP!! c la... life sucks.. no money no fun...n making money oso no fun...hais... n if making money for fun... no time for fun .... y like that...i suppose to mit mi malay frens to watch movie, n goin jurong bird park wid another...im broke..how... well somethings gotta give...

bored as usual

wow... today i was much more productive than usual.. i actuali cooked n washed mi clothes.. i went to trim mi hair but god noes how she cut it .. makes no diff.. mcm waste mi money... n i din go church today ( again)... a mth liao... so lazy to go... god will be thinking that i oni appear wen i m in trouble n need his help.. hehe well wen i din go fer years...wen i had a problem that's wen i went back to church n wen wkly faithfully. well i became lazy.. nxt wk mz go..waa... now holiday i kip[ eating like pig... hmm... today i ate ramly burger n otah otah... now stomach ache... so humid.. wat weather is this.. so bored.. im broke.. can't shop, can't go out.. haiz.. waiting fer pay.. i dun care! im gonna shop n enjoy mi holidays.. before i start work... hmm.. n go broke all over again.. somethings juz dun change does it.

chalet chalet

wow...... mi body is aching...well there was mi class chalet on the 13th may to 15th may at pasir ris costasands... sadly the ppl at the bbq were those hu organized + some of the gals bf.. so irritating wen ppl say they r coming but dun turn up claiming they r bz n stuff.. haiz ppl... but it was fun.. the first we check in.. n guess wat wen i stepped out of the taxi i saw this stupid fella i din wan to c... i juz ignored him while he kept looking.. nonsense..
we put all our stuff away... then we started to marinate the chicken... well i did the honours of mixing it...then i had to do the next disgusting job... clear the intestines of the fish... man!! i never do it at home.. but well it's juz us n some1 had to do it... well at the end mi n mi frens smelled like fishmongers.. then we go jalan jalan n shop fer shorts.. wer i gt a kol 4rm a brudder of mine...which oni gave mi stress.. i was oready stressed wit many things n now that... haiz mi mood to cheong totalli went off man... so pressured... eventualli we all took a bath n got all dressed up n went out... n yet another kol wich add more stress... sianz.. in the end i left early... i feel so sad that i din enjoy wid mi frens that nite... but sometimes u juz can't force urself to b happy n enjoy..the next day i woke up all early n took bus 21 to the chalet... sadly im such a smart ass i took the bus at the wrong side of the road n oni realised wen i saw geylang.. damn!!! i gt down n looked desperately fer an atm machine n i oni found 1 but damn it was out of service... feel like killin miself.. y i so stupid!! eventuali i work all over the place n found an atm... may b god noes i was having a shitty morning.. so the moment i gt to the road there was a taxi.thank God. wen i reach ther guess wat.. all the monkeyz juz woke up n it was oready 10 plus..girls.. eventualli i gt mi breakfast n we were all slackin n watchin tv n they were telling mi all bout the previous nite.. i wish i cld hv been there.. oh n we went cyling fer 1 hr... n thanks to mi dear fren asmah mi butt hurts... i can't cycle so obviously i went doubles with her... she din realise there was a big branch in the way wen she turned the cycle n guess wat our butts hit hard on the seat n then we almost fell... but it was fun.. then we bbq the food... eat.. n mi fav part was at nite.. we went n bought bubbles .. we went to the baby pool.. stand in it n blow bubbles... so romantic haiz.... haiz... n wen it was time to go home the gals walk mi to take a cab... n apple started crying... n i dunnoe y... well we all r gonna miz each other.. im not crying yet cuz i noe i still hv abita of time n i definitely will mit the gals up b4 i start work..well dats life.. frens come n go..n not many stay.. hu will be still in contact ten years 4rm now .. realli hard to say.. everybody will hv their own lives... including mi..but i definitely enjoyed this chalet the most.. but the next time round im not going to hold all the money.. its tiring to look after all the financial issues..

man.... after so long mi comp n net is working again.. yipee!! hehe.. well a sat i m shockinly sitting at home n not goin out... today goin to rain sia.. well so wat hv i been up to.. well i hv officially finished mi attachment... starting mi work as a staff nurse on 13 june.. so fast ah!!! n wow i had the director of nursing tok to mi in ward n sister was so happy that i put up a gd front.. oni wat problem ...i din tie up mi hair... feel like cutting mi hair...aiya...... i dun wan to start work... n wel well wat do i hv.. mi kaypo parents looking at mi typing away hahaha....n now i wanna upload mi fotos bt mi scanner nt working rite now.. arrr.... n i m black in colour after goin to east coast.. part time nigro fer now... so dark.. n wit all min skin peeling.. eeee.. im disgusted.. ya la hu ask mi itchy backside dun put sunscreen... hmmm mother's day tmrw... i got mi mum a handbag n she actualli liked it.. hehe... y isit we oni show our love to our mum on mother's day n forget bout her after...humans... well that includes me as well... i noe i can b one lazy rebellious daughter... bt well i appreciate mi mum... she how angry oso still put food on the table fer mi n washes mi clothes n buys mi chocolates hehe... sometimes i feel so bad... well i will change.. eventually... well later we are gon go out khalsa to eat as a family.. something not done fer a long while.. i feel like shopping... bt i better stay hme tmrw la...yesterday wen i went to schl to return mi clinical diary i realised how much i miss the place... haiz.... next time im goin there will b during graduation....time pass so fast... 6 wks of attachment over... 5 weeks of holiday then i hv to function as a staff nurse... can i not start yet?? worried bout the future oready....

cheeky cheeky mi

well but i forgot to say something... man !! this dr. nair is so damn cute...i won't exactly say he's handsome.. he has a very stern iron face but wen he smiles well well he looks cute.. no im not intrested... juz well admire him..hehehe c la like thiz oso i wan to add in..haiya but not mi ward doctor la.. WASTED!! he juz missed noe'in a gd soul.. MI!! ppl dun puke k i wan to get back to mi hokkien me la chao.

complainz....

haiz i oready noe i have a pt. complain bout mi but din expect sista to actuali address it today.this patient of mine complain that i din show any respect. i did not tell b4 taking her bp n pulse n wen she had asked mi for a tissue paper she said i threw a vomit bag on her table instead... seriously... if she wanted a tissue i wld hv given it to her.. y m i gonna trouble miself to the prep rm n go get a vomit bag n waste mi time.. as far as im comcerned normali i ALWAYS tell mi patients b4 i do anithing to then be it bp n pulse.. so i dunnoe y this came up.. n its obvious ywat a vomit bag is for..y m i gonna gv it to her unless she needs it.. worst of all i can't recall which patient isit...in the end sister showed it to mi lecturer ms kamala n well she toked to mi.. i expected speeches n naggins but well it was juz a talk n she said mayb its mi body language... wat a ridiculous complain... haiz.. mz b more careful.. sianz..yesterday i had a lost imr..thank god we found it but was in a diff ward..well i gt home today oni at 10.45 pm after passing report..had mi bath n now eating hokkien mee , drinkin orange juice n typin this at the same time.. waa the weather so hot man!! haiz... tmrw muz wake up earli..gtg fer medical checkup fer all bonded students... well im gonna eat finish n go slp.. so tired...

3yrs like 3 mins

man time pass damn fast!! mi frens n i were sposed to mit today but unfortunately im forced to attend an aunts bday..seriously wat the heck m i gonna do there.. so boring..haiz..well will b goin later on .. so sadly can't mit mi frens n i think the person hu is most disappointed is mi dear fren asmah... we were like suppose to mit so mant times n oways gt cancellled... i miss that monkey. we oways lyke to argue n neither one of us will gv in to each other.. well its a capricorn thing..but we noe its juz fer fun.. hmm.. 3yrs of skool OVER... been in attachment fer a mth now n time passed so fast.. i mizz ma gal frens.. hv not seen them fer a mth.. except fer jasmine.. happy that we're in the same ward at least i noe im not gonna lose contact wid her yet.. grace popped mi a happy news.. she is already accepted by CGH n iz gonna b a staff ther comin july..im starting in mid june.. 2 more weeks to end of attachment then holidays... after wich im a fully pledged SGH staff.. time definitely doesn't wait fer anione..mi sec days are still fresh in mi mind.. i feel like i juz joined nyp n the 3 yrs course iz juz bout over..all the good moments and bad.. the fun, joy, arguments, fights , tears and love.. we allw atched each other grow up in the 3 yrs... grace the quiet gal become someone chatty n cheeky thanks to mi n jas influence , vivian b more outspoken , lanlan 4eva tok out of topic bt a v hardworkin gal.jas.. well she's the same.. shld become a dietician..mi.. well become much noisier n definitely cheekier..hey its healthy to b cheeky u noe.. hehe..n learnt alot of valuable lessons.. be it to be a bttr person or a nurse... tings were learnt.. n within this 3 yrs i learnt alot of hu can b trusted n hu can't b.. hu are mi frens n hu were pretending to b mi frens.. we all became close within this 3 yrs but well i dunnoe if it will b the same wen we part our ways to the working world.. r things gonna b the same?? well as fer now juz treasure our times spent with each other n hv loads and loads of fun..n well hopefully we kip those sweet memories of our schooling days n may we never forget each other... i love n miss mi dear frens even in this moment.. ASMAH , GRACE , JASMINE , LANLAN AND VIVIAN, mengjie mi buddy , indhu n kossi mi dance mates hu gave a rocking performance together with mi during nurse's day.. n ol mi other frens hu laughed to tears with mi... man i miss mi frens.. y does time hv to pass that fast?? can i go back in time to relive these moments again? I THANK OL MI FRENS HU WERE THERE FER MI THRUOUT THIS 3 YEARS DURING MI HAPPINESS AND SADNESS... THANK U..
i will ALWAYS hold on to those special moments n time i had in mi life..
Thank GOD fer mi precious frens i was given...well.... rite now i gtg bathe n go to that bday.. man i wish i was out instead..

future...leave me out of it..

n im juz starting out... year 3.. the time we hv so much of pressure... gonna pass put soon in mid june n i still feel like idiot... so many things to learn n im goin mad... lucky most of mi staff r those hu are willin to teach man.. but mi basics r nt firm.. so how m i gonna b a staff nurse?? i worried sia... still blur bout the way arnd sgh..haiz...alot of things im unsure.. im juz worried i can't make it..to b a gd staff nurse... look at mi.. a person hu makes ppl laugh n encourage ppl, gettin scared...man i am scared bout the future...can i b 1 year old again?? mi frens all in diff ward... how r we gonna eva mit up again?? i neva expected 3 yrs to pass this fast.. n yes i enjoyed mi schooling days...the good n the bad wich made me hu i m now...sometimes i wished i studied sometin else instead..bt i come so far..too late to back out.hiaz.. but rite now mi biggest worry...workin as a staff nurse n mi biggest question... m i up to it?? only future will tell mi..

funerals...

last nite i gt a msg 4rm mi fren saying her sis in law had pass away...well she was sick fer a long time... but i din expect her to pass on... so young oni in her 30s.. one son oni in pri 4 ...wen i attended the funeral the place was filled wid ppl crying n mourning... even i miself cried...
looking at all these sometimes i juz wonder how little we appreciate n trasure the ppl arnd us...alot of times we neglect em.. all forgetting that one day we might lose them n wat r v gonna do then.. no point sitting down n regretting fer ol those things u did or did not do..cuz the person's not there animore...i agree even i m 1 of them.. neglecting mi family alot of times... y do we wait fer em to fall ill or go to dying state then show the love?? y not do it while we r healthy n fine?? cuz its oni wen something happens to our loved one wen we start feeling afraid that we might lose em...i hope i can do wat i say... show love to all ur loved ones n nvr neglect em.. cuz its too late to do all this wen they r gone.....
treasure ur life n others....
God Bless My Family n Frens.~

i wish...

i wish i did not fall sick
cuz if i din fall sick i won't hv to makeup duty... if it ws a nice staff i was workin with it would be a diff story... man!! mi s.n. sucked... n so a day spoiled wid no mood to work.. juz counting down to 3p.m. juz to end ma shift n get mi ass home to the four walls i hv to c..mi mum "sang a song"wen i asked if i cld go out.again ol bcz wen im nt feelin well i hv to stay hme.. do i hv a say...so im rottin at home wid basically nuthin much to do.unbelievable..bt yes 2 weeks of mi saturdays i stayed home n din go aniwer.. wah.. break record.;)
haiz.. wan 2 enjoy oso cannot.. mayb God c that im goin out too much n nvr at home that's y he make mi sick so i go home evriday...sometimes i juz get so tired of life that i juz wanna lock miself in a room n do nuthin bt slp..slp till im not tired animore..nt gonna happen though...
ºóª therefore in conclusion i wish i was not sick...

i wan 2 go out!

I wan to go out....!!! im rottin here... hu ask mi fall sick! now c la mi 2 sat burned jus looking at sick patients.... like i dun have enuf of it on wkdays... mi day sucked ;(