future...leave me out of it..

n im juz starting out... year 3.. the time we hv so much of pressure... gonna pass put soon in mid june n i still feel like idiot... so many things to learn n im goin mad... lucky most of mi staff r those hu are willin to teach man.. but mi basics r nt firm.. so how m i gonna b a staff nurse?? i worried sia... still blur bout the way arnd sgh..haiz...alot of things im unsure.. im juz worried i can't make it..to b a gd staff nurse... look at mi.. a person hu makes ppl laugh n encourage ppl, gettin scared...man i am scared bout the future...can i b 1 year old again?? mi frens all in diff ward... how r we gonna eva mit up again?? i neva expected 3 yrs to pass this fast.. n yes i enjoyed mi schooling days...the good n the bad wich made me hu i m now...sometimes i wished i studied sometin else instead..bt i come so far..too late to back out.hiaz.. but rite now mi biggest worry...workin as a staff nurse n mi biggest question... m i up to it?? only future will tell mi..