another meanin to life?

wat hv i been up to?? nuthin juz work
today i was so dead bored n everybody not free to mit mi so i made plans diff... i brought mi mum out fer a movie (i dun do that often by the way)
we went to watch the DESCENT. scary!!! it scared the shit outta mi... damn... but the movie nice.. din reali get the moral of the story till mi bro told mi the moral.. its bout animals hu stick by fer one another n hv compassion but humans behave compassionless n animal like
i do agree... that many of us r like that...
sadly
i met mi ex patient... hu is the one patient hu i did care alot fer.. he has quite a sad story n suffered alot of pain throughout the hospitalisation n a very very nice patient...
n happy to see him discharged after almost 3mths of hospitalisation
saw him on mi way to work... happy to see him get on well..
i nvr forget those times he was olways in pain n even times wen he gives up wants to suicide.. i feel happy that i did manage to tok positive thinkin n that rite now he is livin much better...
its such small tings we do that help others that create meaning fer the job im doin...
n i dunnoe if i will ever continue this job or leave it... seeing how stressful it gets n no one appreciates u fer the fact....
which can drive mi nuts n think its a shit job...
rite now mi life??
i have no plans.. i dunno wat the hell im gonna do in the future..
wer to go ... wat to do..
i reali dunnoe
rite now its juz frens n work n family
i work like crazy.. hang out wif frens wen im free... wat else??
i reali hv no plans.... meaning to life???
dunnoe used to hv a meaning to life..
now i juz want to search the meanin n dun waste time feelin sad..
now not as sad but well... still not sure wat i want in life...
or wat i want to do...
n shit im goin to b 21.. haiz growing older...
n i hv yet to discover meaning to life..
i counsel ppl well but a sad case hu dun live by wat she taught others...
i wish i start doin that..
n i wish i know wat to do with mi life...