decisions

Handed in... N they r trying to retain me..
everyone talked and im tired...
ask me to think it over a few days...
haiz....
Stressed..

resign....

Well it's time to tender...
Guess i'll head to work early and hand in...
Actually want to give today but firstly...
I lazy..
2ndly my printer no ink..
haiz its so irritating... Ink finish don't know how to buy...
gng to buy later..

Yesterday went out wif mi brother n sister..
shop shop..
Bought abang pressie...
He's such a kaypo.. eveything must know..
hope it likes it though..

Today gng to meet indhu..
going church then go to buy stuff i need to get today..
Already wrapped his pressie..

this sat i shall gv it to him..
so that he can use it on his bday..
Sat we gng to club...
yea yeah....
yeah yeah....

sun we went for jci retreat.. mcm club..
haha... hung out at starbucks n luff and tok rubbish...
Well though im scared of whats going to happen next..
I'll face it...

Go anita... I'm sure u can do this...
Cuz i'm a survivor..

A change

I suck at comp but well... i managed to change mi template finally...
Finally its not hay wire..

Yeay!!! Now im going to bed..
Gd nite!!

run run run

Running running as fast as i can...
Do u think i"ll make it..
Keep running
Keep holding my hand..
So we don't >> get seperated...

Hahaha...
well well.. went for my 2nd day run with asmah on thurs before my work...
Better than my first time...
I ran fer 1.5km then cant run had to walk n run alteranately...
well i will keep practising..

wanna lose weight..

today i went to meet indhu at bkt batok n chill...
Abang came over n we had dinner n chit chat
then we went indhu's hse for awhile.. chit chat with her mum
then took bus n got home..

i bought lipstick today!!!
pink n a nude colour.. very shimmery..
i olways wear gloss n not lipstick...
well time to learn to wear lipstiack too

i'm so sleepy...

tmrw im going to try n get up n run..
though dunnoe if can...
so sleepy... i rather sleep hehe
well i will try..
hahha

ward sux today..
damn tired..
Fed up wif doctors and patients...

well watever... Life still RoX!!!

After Run...

Yeay!!! Running...
I went for a run...
K not really a run...
hahahha
1km i run non stop..
after that is ol history..
hehehehe..
well i walk n run...
im trying k..
Thanks to my darling asmah who Brought me to run..
I love you k!!

im not a runner ler..
After the run i msg abng n he kol me...
haha the last time i said i was going fer a run, my mum n bf made fun of me..
so this time run fininsh then tell him hhehe..
Still can tell me wan to train me n make me run 12km..
i will pengsan ... 12km...

then he ask me out fer dinner..
Yeay can't wait to see my pannikutty..
Lup u many many sho many..

Oh well...
Yesterday...


I got a call...
A call from someone i didnt expect..
Someone i was very angry and caused me alot of heartache..
well i was damn shocked he called...
I didnt really know what to say or think..
Just answering whatever he asked..
Seriuosly my mind was racing..
i didn't know why i didn't yell in all the anger i had..
But i didn't yell..
To me i just wanted to know what he wanted or why he suddenly called..
And no he was Not any of my EX guy.. Someone Who i knew and hurt me alot..

Him: So you're attached right
Me: yes i am
Him: Hows Your Relationship?
Me: Great. I'm Happy.
Him: Good. Im happy for you
Me: Thanks.
Him: You're Welcome.

Then the conversation went on about what he's doing and what i'm doin..
then he said : I'm Very Sorry for Whatever i Did to You. I know i hurt you and i regret my mistake.. I have been feeling very guilty bout' it..Ya.. I'm sorry..

When i heard this i really don't know what to say..
I didn't say i forgive him cuz i can't..
I didn't say it's okie cuz it was not..
I was very hurt by him..
I just kept quiet..
what do i say??
Better to say Nothing..
Cuz I can't forgive nor Forget...

Then i did ask if he was attached.
And he said he still single..
He did try But can't really find a proper girl..

Then He said When He met a nice person he didn't appreciate it..
he met alot of others who well didn't turn out all nice..
eventually he said what goes around, comes around...
I just smiled to myself..
Ya it was true..
What goes around comes around..
I guess he learnt his lesson over the year i told him not to call me..

yup its been a year since he talked to me..
I pretty much put it behind me and i don't talk much about it to anyone except aneeta..
Well so the first person i told to was her.. She was shocked..
But well in the end we believe he learned his lesson and he actually called to say sorry..
I respect the fact that he took the intiative and guts to say he's sorry..
Cuz he is not that sort..

Well i Believe In GoD..
Guess She wasn't blind after all..
My Heart does feel lighter though with that sorry...
I won't say i Forgive him.. It's difficult..
But well it helps tp put this bad memory away..

At least He said Sorry Unlike My 1st ex..
Who Hurt me the most...
I wonder..
If he ever felt the pain he caused me..
hmm...

Whatever it is...
With all this unexpected stuff going on..
I'm Still Happy...
N well i should say this often cuz ma sis Doesn't see this olways...

LIFE RAWKS!!! And it still IS!!!

N Now im off to meet my abang go mum mum...
Can't wait to see my HElmet!!!

going runnin

well the whole day i did nothing but sleep...
basically i just got up...
well asmah kold and well we r going fer a run now...
i hope it doesnt rain..
gtg get change...
wel running here i come....

Shalini i still try n exercise k....
so dun u dare luf at me wen mi go running!!hahhaha
b back after run!

weight!!!

weight weight go away ..

come again another ... no no dun come again

haiyo im getting fatter n fatter.....

well 3 nites over and on off...

nite was ok...

sadly would hv been more fun if i had mi members to werk wif,,

stay at home do nothing but watch videos..

im in love wif the jabbawockeez

the way the dance n move....

i miss dancing so much

wanna go n dance again

hmmm lets see if i got the time...

mi helmet is ol ready n done..

its at abng's place ..

can't wait to see it

he say he pasted ol the stickers anihow which i doubt he will...

but he did say mine look nicer than his hahahaha

well i was supposed to go running but well its raining..

see even God doesnt want me to exercise..

bad fer health hahaha

Well i miss mi pannikutty..

can's wait to see him... n i got to go get his gift..

i hvn't buy mi besties bday present oso...

mi sis just pointed out...

its been a while since i said Life Rawks...

haha

well it does.. n still does...

cuz i Have ol mi Loved ones..

Same track of life...

Yeay...........

I dunnoe yeay for what...

basically i feel better...

With things over and done with....

im free as usual again...

but well roster sux, so working again but at least not that bad now as mc has dropped..

work wise going ok ok... living with it...

looking for some place new to venture...

too long .. i think any longer there will be moulds on me haha

Was shoooo happy to see MY LOVE on sunday n hang out together..

Its getting more more difficult to see him... got too many assignments and projects n more tests to top it all..

Guess what!!! i bought mi own helmet and i can't wait to design it...!

After many many years i finally ate the mee hoon goreng i love at haig road..

now i found the place there's going to be more frequent visits haahaha

His bday is coming.... yet to get him his pressie..

Already thought of what to buy... but need to go hunting...

well his birthday is Fasting month so pretty much loads of things need to be thought properly before deciding....

I think i will keep it a simple day... Maybe get friends when we break fast....see how...

Speaking of aLL THIS FASTIN... well hope i survive...

Can't wait for the end of the month.... we going clubbing!!!!!

What have i been doing when i'm free...

pretty much lazing around..

playing my brother's PSP...

I never knew how much time i actually spent wasting on PSP..

So maybe i might get a PSP too in awhile... too waste the too much extra time i have ahaha

I miss dancing n so im thinking of going for dancing classes in CC... With mi sister..

My brother seems a little better... though grumpiness is still alot in him...

Sometimes some things are difficult to forget...

goes the same for me...

witha powerful memory for peoplle and things they say and do...

its hard to forget and forgive at times..

Well I love my family...

The others in family don't realise what they got... Pushing the older around as if they are Humans without any feelings..

If i had a bigger house i would call him to come stay with us..

Haiz... all the things they do and say.. So Hurting..

If i could speak out .. everyone will get it from me..

Why Blame others When You Don't know How to Bring up YOUR KID!!!

They don't know how to do a proper upbringing and they are so clever in putting blame on others when the mistake lies with them...

its ok everybody grow old...

What goes around comes around..

You think your kid will even bother about you in old age??

All these things... unnecesary headache and hurt... Gives my poor mum a headache.

As for me.. I'm sitting out and watching the show...

oh well my brother's home..

going to go play psp again haha

Then to Bring my mum go do her hair...

I love my family.

I love Asmah and Isma.

I love Abang.

I love My Life Cuz I Have All of you loved ones...

LIFE RAWKS!!!