n the list goes on...

List haha...
mi frens will noe wat i mean...
so damn happy..
just completed 3 nytes..
was like hell!!!

1st nyte damn busy
aftr that i went out n got home at almost 3
slept fer 3 hrs n had to go work again
darn sleepy..
2nd nyte was ok but sleepy...
then i got home n din slp..
mi fren veronica came over n ate at mi hme n we were toking loads of stuff...
man i miss those times wen we were alone n were tooking loads os stuff..
i olways loved her but well we fought over nonsense stuff..
thats frens
n so i din slp at ol n went to werk...
man i was a zombie..
everthing was slow motion sia..
at a point of time i was walking sideways n cant open mi eyes... haha
mi collegue helped mi to walk straight..
haha
the i knocked out...
in the bus n was walking like a drunk woman back home..
i barely can open ma eyes...
then i knocked out n slept
rechargin mi batt hahaha
so well nvr do nite shifts without slp..

mi frn said im much more happier at werk than before..
glad that i am n ppl noticed..
i hv to learn that among ol the sorrows i must smile instead of sit n cry..
some ppl think im not bothered of their feelings n then im living in own world n that im becoming worse n stuff..
mayb at times ya...
but i spend times wif mi frens n do ol this to forget n de stress....
alot of things in mind i dun say out
but better left unsaid..
ppl will not understand...
sometimes i miself dunnoe y everything is happening that way n y im doin wat im doin...
ppl think im sittin n enjoying miself wen i was juz busy crying mi eyes out...
ol i can say dun judge wen u dunnoe...
cuz the ppl hu know me n see mi everyday will know the difference....

im a survivor..
i will b happy..
as much as i hate ward ryte now i will love mi work
i will try
n i will not cry...

smile....
u nvr know hu's day u hv made wif that 1 smile...

~rebbie~

yet another chpt to b closed...

So many things happening...
things i nvr expect..
shocking n scary...
can't believe wats happening...
not sure wat to do
wat path to take..
juz moving on day to day...

i wonder alot of things...
y things r the way they are
decisions i make
ryte or wrong...
ppl i mit...
good or bad...

its ol haywire..
y m i kidding miself..

i tink its time fer chocies..
to help mi relax n decide mi next move in the game called Life.
~rebbie~

SivAGAME

The play was wonderful!!!
Superb...
history relived....
the dance n play was excellent....
but the price of mi goin hungry hahha
now waiting fer mi cup noodle to b ready...
Healthy diet huh...
hhaha
Glad to see niron after so long... mi counsellor n motivator
hu is forever busy...
he n his slang... haha
had a gd day...
but a shit day at werk...
damn busy...
had to pass things feel bad...
man im tired...
thank god 2 days off...
i shall enjoy ma weekends
n no one shall spoil it
Smile....

~rebbie~

y can't ppl b nice??

its so damn sickening
EOT staff r irritating!!!
they r so damn rude!!!
i tok so nicely n they go yelling away...
sometimes b nice oso no point
cuz get shit back
haiyo b nurse macam living hell at times
but well mi patients were nice n sweet
mostly...
so well thats important ryte
patients...

was yacking away wif sarah n veronica...
bout life n men being a bum
hmm....
well lets see if wat sarah say will come true...
If Ees will kol mi a week later....
here again u b ol nice n tok properly n listen to ppl
they do nonsense...

well patience is virtue
i shall stay being nice n smiley n happy
hopefully it doesn't die down..
haha
tmrw im morning shift ol alone...
hope i survive!
im gonna watch a play tmrw wif ma counsellor hu's mi pri schl fren hehe
mi pillar of strength wen i was heading to depression...
shall updat bout the play...
it better b good
cuz i hv to sit n freeze mi ass fer 3 hrs...

nytes
light out
~rebbie~

im back!!!!

argh!!!! i can blog again!!!
THKS TO MI DEAREST SISTER... I LOVE YOU LOADS!!
finally!!
wahha
well well...
wats new
im single
so many things happened...
got depressed n now picking miself up again...

u noe....
life is something wonderful
a gift to us
but sometimes well alot of times we take it as a pain n live in the pain
remembering ol the hurts we went thru n not olways remembering the smiles we had
fer gals hu r heartbroken....
dun let a man bring u down..
u know y
cuz we dun deserve this..
everyday is a new day n we must b happy WIF wat we hv..
cuz wen we lose them one day
it's too late... no point regretting then

kumar is goin aussie...
soon... I'll Miss You
a man hu was there wif mi n tolerated ol mi nonsense...
but sadly i cant gv much...
guess i dun reali noe wat i wan animore...
doin things just in a rush
but ryte now
thinkin thru things alot..
well im not saying i regret mi decisions...
well 1 decision ... yes...
Nvr trust any1 easily...
cuz there r many vultures waiting fer meat...
n 1 day...
these ppl hu hurt mi..
will feel the pain i was caused...
cause the pain inflicted.. still brings tears to mi eyes...
but everyday i tell miself..
Smile cause the ppl hu hurt dun gv a shit n no point holdin on to the pain...
put em at the back of ur heart n smile n olways b happy...
If not for urself... fer the ppl Hu LOVE You

Fer the ppl i love...
its fer them...
they will b hurt seeing mi in mi depressed state...
n i hate they way i was wen i was down...
as much as mi life is fucked up...
i will fight this fer happiness...
N daily u will see a smile on mi face...

~rebecca~