major changes....

Loads of things Happened...

Well updates....

yea they tried to retain.. tot of waiting for dec bonus before a chao..
Sadly Economy Crisis has set in...
Unless i do get a better paying job then i will chao.. otherwise.. stay n apply advnce again...
Sux.. But i will survive..
Cuz im a Survivor!!

WeLL Gramps Diagnosed Wif Stage 4 cA..
So Many things happened...
Pretty much confused but he's picking up...
Till the Last Breath we want to keep him Happy..
Seriously... How r u a family if ur not there as family at all...
Seriously they r not even worth..
iF ANYONE DARES SAY ANITHING .. they will get it..

Due to ol this... Abang has a meet the family session..
1st wif mi grandfather while he was still ok then he met the rest of the family..
Anyway he is considered part of the family..
Parents see him as son in law.. Siblings as brother in law..
Everyone telling me to get married fast..
Hahaha wishful thinking... still got long way to go i guess...
Guess wen u reach that certain age... its just a question u can't escape..

The only thing im busy with... work.. meet abang if not gym..

Yes im heading the gym... Glad that i lost weight then fer 3 wks didnt go properly and now im put on 1kg..
God time to cheong in the gym...

Went fer mi sis play.. Well Prataman was funny n yes Highlight fer he show...
2 rounds of it n i cant get enuf...
she should do a serial someday
darn funny
hahahha
hope she one day makes it big in media as a female comedian!!

Morning tmrw... gng to bed soon...

decisions

Handed in... N they r trying to retain me..
everyone talked and im tired...
ask me to think it over a few days...
haiz....
Stressed..

resign....

Well it's time to tender...
Guess i'll head to work early and hand in...
Actually want to give today but firstly...
I lazy..
2ndly my printer no ink..
haiz its so irritating... Ink finish don't know how to buy...
gng to buy later..

Yesterday went out wif mi brother n sister..
shop shop..
Bought abang pressie...
He's such a kaypo.. eveything must know..
hope it likes it though..

Today gng to meet indhu..
going church then go to buy stuff i need to get today..
Already wrapped his pressie..

this sat i shall gv it to him..
so that he can use it on his bday..
Sat we gng to club...
yea yeah....
yeah yeah....

sun we went for jci retreat.. mcm club..
haha... hung out at starbucks n luff and tok rubbish...
Well though im scared of whats going to happen next..
I'll face it...

Go anita... I'm sure u can do this...
Cuz i'm a survivor..

A change

I suck at comp but well... i managed to change mi template finally...
Finally its not hay wire..

Yeay!!! Now im going to bed..
Gd nite!!

run run run

Running running as fast as i can...
Do u think i"ll make it..
Keep running
Keep holding my hand..
So we don't >> get seperated...

Hahaha...
well well.. went for my 2nd day run with asmah on thurs before my work...
Better than my first time...
I ran fer 1.5km then cant run had to walk n run alteranately...
well i will keep practising..

wanna lose weight..

today i went to meet indhu at bkt batok n chill...
Abang came over n we had dinner n chit chat
then we went indhu's hse for awhile.. chit chat with her mum
then took bus n got home..

i bought lipstick today!!!
pink n a nude colour.. very shimmery..
i olways wear gloss n not lipstick...
well time to learn to wear lipstiack too

i'm so sleepy...

tmrw im going to try n get up n run..
though dunnoe if can...
so sleepy... i rather sleep hehe
well i will try..
hahha

ward sux today..
damn tired..
Fed up wif doctors and patients...

well watever... Life still RoX!!!

After Run...

Yeay!!! Running...
I went for a run...
K not really a run...
hahahha
1km i run non stop..
after that is ol history..
hehehehe..
well i walk n run...
im trying k..
Thanks to my darling asmah who Brought me to run..
I love you k!!

im not a runner ler..
After the run i msg abng n he kol me...
haha the last time i said i was going fer a run, my mum n bf made fun of me..
so this time run fininsh then tell him hhehe..
Still can tell me wan to train me n make me run 12km..
i will pengsan ... 12km...

then he ask me out fer dinner..
Yeay can't wait to see my pannikutty..
Lup u many many sho many..

Oh well...
Yesterday...


I got a call...
A call from someone i didnt expect..
Someone i was very angry and caused me alot of heartache..
well i was damn shocked he called...
I didnt really know what to say or think..
Just answering whatever he asked..
Seriuosly my mind was racing..
i didn't know why i didn't yell in all the anger i had..
But i didn't yell..
To me i just wanted to know what he wanted or why he suddenly called..
And no he was Not any of my EX guy.. Someone Who i knew and hurt me alot..

Him: So you're attached right
Me: yes i am
Him: Hows Your Relationship?
Me: Great. I'm Happy.
Him: Good. Im happy for you
Me: Thanks.
Him: You're Welcome.

Then the conversation went on about what he's doing and what i'm doin..
then he said : I'm Very Sorry for Whatever i Did to You. I know i hurt you and i regret my mistake.. I have been feeling very guilty bout' it..Ya.. I'm sorry..

When i heard this i really don't know what to say..
I didn't say i forgive him cuz i can't..
I didn't say it's okie cuz it was not..
I was very hurt by him..
I just kept quiet..
what do i say??
Better to say Nothing..
Cuz I can't forgive nor Forget...

Then i did ask if he was attached.
And he said he still single..
He did try But can't really find a proper girl..

Then He said When He met a nice person he didn't appreciate it..
he met alot of others who well didn't turn out all nice..
eventually he said what goes around, comes around...
I just smiled to myself..
Ya it was true..
What goes around comes around..
I guess he learnt his lesson over the year i told him not to call me..

yup its been a year since he talked to me..
I pretty much put it behind me and i don't talk much about it to anyone except aneeta..
Well so the first person i told to was her.. She was shocked..
But well in the end we believe he learned his lesson and he actually called to say sorry..
I respect the fact that he took the intiative and guts to say he's sorry..
Cuz he is not that sort..

Well i Believe In GoD..
Guess She wasn't blind after all..
My Heart does feel lighter though with that sorry...
I won't say i Forgive him.. It's difficult..
But well it helps tp put this bad memory away..

At least He said Sorry Unlike My 1st ex..
Who Hurt me the most...
I wonder..
If he ever felt the pain he caused me..
hmm...

Whatever it is...
With all this unexpected stuff going on..
I'm Still Happy...
N well i should say this often cuz ma sis Doesn't see this olways...

LIFE RAWKS!!! And it still IS!!!

N Now im off to meet my abang go mum mum...
Can't wait to see my HElmet!!!

going runnin

well the whole day i did nothing but sleep...
basically i just got up...
well asmah kold and well we r going fer a run now...
i hope it doesnt rain..
gtg get change...
wel running here i come....

Shalini i still try n exercise k....
so dun u dare luf at me wen mi go running!!hahhaha
b back after run!

weight!!!

weight weight go away ..

come again another ... no no dun come again

haiyo im getting fatter n fatter.....

well 3 nites over and on off...

nite was ok...

sadly would hv been more fun if i had mi members to werk wif,,

stay at home do nothing but watch videos..

im in love wif the jabbawockeez

the way the dance n move....

i miss dancing so much

wanna go n dance again

hmmm lets see if i got the time...

mi helmet is ol ready n done..

its at abng's place ..

can't wait to see it

he say he pasted ol the stickers anihow which i doubt he will...

but he did say mine look nicer than his hahahaha

well i was supposed to go running but well its raining..

see even God doesnt want me to exercise..

bad fer health hahaha

Well i miss mi pannikutty..

can's wait to see him... n i got to go get his gift..

i hvn't buy mi besties bday present oso...

mi sis just pointed out...

its been a while since i said Life Rawks...

haha

well it does.. n still does...

cuz i Have ol mi Loved ones..