sick....

Its funny....

The worls is definately a scary place...

If u sit n think.. watch the news...
u will realise...
it's a scary place...
Things happen....


I am still shocked over something...
Cried for a whole day...
It has been a long time since i cried like that...
Cuz mostly smiles were spread on mi face because of love i have...

all i can say is i will b more alert..
wat happen makes me more aware n yes scared... still.. esp crowded place..
when i see too many ppl i get worried..
but when i cried everyone close beside me whol love n care for me feel very sad...
mi family stood supportive right by me..
mi brother n sister tryying to make me laugh...

My boyfren, he feels so helpless...
seriously.. there's nothing much he can do but just b there with me..
cuz he was not there with me durng the incident...
if he was i dun think anything ould have happened...

But he was there talking to me till i stopped crying..
cared for me..
worried for me..
n i feel sad that because of me he got so worried n upset...
ol i can say is i tell myself to stop thinking bout it n b happy n talk as per normal cuz i cant see mi boyfren feeling sad. and i know he was...
today i was much better than yesterday...
i talk as per normal...
each time i get reminded i think of mi bf n loved ones...

I promised to be a strong girl n take care of miself...
and so i shall..
not for me but for him...
cuz i love him.... so much...

Its ok... God is watching watever happens n 1 fine day he will definitely punish ppl like them...
All i want is to b happy n see my bf happy...
the reason for my smiles must not b sad
Cuz if he is sad or cries, so will I...

I wonder what i will do without him or my fren asmah hu was there n let mi sit n cry mi heart out..
I love You asmah... Mi twin...
I love mi abang.. Jaafar..
I Love mi mum, brother, sister n mi dad....
I Love Joan.....
At the end of the day these ppl who are part of my life show me love ... to keep moving on ahead...

So Much LOVE....
in this love i swim in... the tears will not last long..
they are juz momentary...