Wats new?? many things...

Elo......

Well well... Look who's back..

On a very long leave..

So damn happy...

Need not see the stupid ward...

Will Be goin back to work on 8th jan... so till then .... EnjOy!!!

This is me.. In my new specy..

So long since i even wore glasses out of my house...

Now i shall daringly...

Once in awhile...

I Look older with glasses... Wouldn't really like that would I... Hahaz...

Well Abang Likes it... hehe

Wondering who's this beautiful girl hehe

tak malu kan...

hehe... It's me... All dressed to go meet indhu then abang and Hakim( Abng Best Friend)

to go for their friends wedding...

Gosh!!! Look at all the pimples...

haiz..

Someone save me...

Me and indhu.... All dressed... haha

Well the only sad thing...

On this very day Hakim ( My abng's gay partner (grrr...) )

proclaimed me a lusu...

I'm Not mad... I'm just a little crazy....

hahahaha

then the big preparation for mi chalet...

All went ok..

But alot of peeps last minute didn't turn up which was damn irritating cuz i ordered food n well got wasted...

Upset that some close friends didn't turn up and well 1 can even give me a stupid reason...

oh well forget it...

Don't wanna say much... Let them Be..

Glad the rest turned up though...

Well these are some of the many

pics taken in the chalet...

Above are my nyp mates... Man i'm glad they all turned up.. Miss them loads!!!

Too Free... So i hv changed mi cupboard such that i

can see my abng everyday in the morning...

Me and abng...

Our wonderful 3 days in the chalet...

he was so so hardworking... He did all the bbq'ing

Poor baby....

He was so damn tired and yet he cleaned and packed....

i greatly appreciate what he's doing for me....

and he gave me my b'day present and i was soo touched that i cried...

He actually drew mi pic on the comp n frame it for me

it was shooo shweet....

hardwork....

and a mp3...

i cant go aniwer without my hp n music...

my mp3 was spoilt....

and he got me a new one when he needed one himself...

which i was planning to get him for a long time...

so i did get him a MP4 and gave it to him on the eve of X'mas...

i'm glad he liked it....

heee...

he came over my place for xmas...

all shy n quiet hahaha

i cant wait to see my xmas pressie... hehehee

well all my bday pressies my frens gave me are under the x'mas tree...

shall open them when we take the tree down.....

I had been having a good time this leave...

hoping for BETTER year ahead...

I hope everything goes well...

And this happiness stays....

I have been smiling alot and i wAnna keep doing that.....

Cuz it's high time i got this back...

My smiles and happiness...

I Love You Abng!!!!

~JeFFiTa~

Sick...

I miss mi boyfriend...
mi poor baby is sick...

he is sick...
i so woried him...
hope he get well soon...

ppl in mi life..

~The PpL In mY lifE~

Its High time I leT the world see who are all the people i talk about...
So here's the introduction to the people in my Life!




This Lady in Pink...
Is my mummy...
A very important women in my life and my up bringing..
Though she nags at me and scolds me, she is one women i love alot...
Queen of Tekka!!
I have no idea what she see's in that place...
haha...





This mad girl who everyone says looks like me is none other than my sister...
Who knows most of whatever happens in my life...
who have seen me shed my tears and seen the worst of me
and been there supportively
But seriously she is worse than a step mother...
She nags worse than my mum..
Someone who is so lovable and a major irritant at times...
Especially when i'm talking to mi bf.
Oh well the 2nd woman in my life who keeps me laughing otherwise we will be arguing over stupid things..
and when we do that the whole house will turn upside down..
The clown in the house..
A Artiste at work...





This cute girl is Asmah..
A very very close friend..
My twin Sister..
No we don't look alike but we always seem to end up in the same problems.. hahaha
and this girl will not turn in any friends meeting or gathering or function unless i turn up..
" you go then i go"
her standard line..
She knows everything and i mean everything ...
My innermost secrets which others don't know..
My trustworthy secret keeper...
Been there During My happy moments and smiled with me...
Sat by me and let me bawl my eyes out when i'm hurt and need to cry..
Always sharing our thoughts and lepak at kopi kachang (Coffee Bean)
remincsing our schooling days..
hmmm... Come to think of it we are together for almost 5 yrs..
We always look each other when we have something important to update or when we have oads to get off out chest..
1 gal who is very dear to me and who always get nagged by me to behave herself..
haha...
I love her so much!!!
Wonder what i will do without her...






This Sweets is my Best Friend!!!
Nur Ismawaty Kadariya...
I have known her since secondary school days..
Same Class..
Known her for almost 9 years...
1 person i trust so much..
Some things i don't tell her , not because i want to hide them from her..
but she is such a soft hearted person who will cry when she hears how much i have been hurt...
The day i saw her cry, I just didn't want to see it again..
Has been with me thick and thin..
Always had mi back and i got hers..
Always given her my shoulders to cry on and mi ears to nag at .. hahaha
Someone who cares so much for me..
Without her... Hmm... It will be different...
I like the fact that she is not like girls nowadays...
A very very decent girl and anyone who hurts her will get it from me..
The best part she stays only a few stops from my house... how convenient hehehe..






This 2 chicks...
Joan and Juzilah..
My ward collegues who i hang out with..
love working with them...
but i miss those days...
Haiz now at renal... Not surgical..
Hope i get to go back and work with them again..

Juzilah (Far right) :
A very bubbly girl..
Love to hear her laugh and talk..
haiyo mix with her until sometimes we all talk like her..
which is so sexy..
But no one can beat Princess Juzilah!!
She is so sexy... Lucky i'm not a guy..
Can't wait for her to Find her Mr. Right...
A Fun person i'm glad i have met..



Reka!!!!
And that's her name...
Mi collegue at surgical...
She is one indian girl so far i get along well with..
maybe for the fact that we both don't really like indians..
haha
my 40 percent Lesbian Partner..
hahahaha...
One girl i'm comfortable talking with in my kiddy voice which not many frens see...
Our ward 64 model..
hehe
has a very nice handwriting, i always admire..
Love to work night shift with her.. we eat loads and talk crap and basically enjoy the shift..
A very sweet person who cares for her friends and a crazy girl to hang out with..
haha..

Joan Christina Hendricks

A collegue who i love working with..

A Friend who i can tell things to when i need a listening ear...

A very understanding person...

But the only problem is when you talk to her she will look all around you but your face..

but thats her la... She is listening but she has the habit of looking all over..

everytime we go home together sure got someone she will disturb one..

haiyo... Fighter cock la this girl..

I see all this i want to laugh..

A very beautiful person whom i admire the courage she have..

cheeky monkey i hang out with..

walking around the reservoir in the name of our so called jogging haha..

I love her hair..

and i love her for being such a good friend at work and off work..

This Lusu is Indhu!!
My non blood related older sister..
My abang's best friend
She is pretty and sexy and a social butterfly..
very easy going, Blends in well with the crowd and even strangers..
Something i can never do... cause i'm too shy..
Known her since poly days..
almost 4 years... around there..
A good person to bring for shopping and shows and club haha
i like her mum's vadai..
simply delicious hee
we do all the weird things and discuss things without the least embarassment..
been there with me on times i needed her help which i do appreciate...
always buying me or choosing earrings for me..
always asking me to try this and that when it comes to dressing..
So if i go shopping with her , i always end up buying what i don't usually buy nor wear and u know what.. it actually looks good on me...
So the Queen Of Shopping..
Can't wait for her to get married..
Feb 10.. wait 10 ryte hehe....
well abang and me will be busy helping her with the wedding..
So exciting.. hehe..

This handsome is none other than mi Prince Charming..

Jaafar..

No need for intro..

I have already done that in my earlier post..

The one guy my family importantly my mum and sister approved of..

The only guy they approved of actually...

The one guy who sends butterflys to my tummy

The one guy who i miss everyday

Who makes me smile

Who teaches me to be a better person..

Who is one guy i listen to.. ( The only one i listen to)

Who shows me love unconditionally..

Who respects women..

And I respect him...

Who nags worse than mi mum and my sister...

But you know what... Its ok.. haha.. He is very cute when he nags..

ahahha

Who will dig the truth out of me even if i don't want to say it out..

It's true.. You need to say out what is in your heart instead of keeping it locked

within.. but I have been doing it for a long time..

Still trying to open up more than keep it to myself..

24/7 always on my mind...

i am proud to say i am a better person...

Happier...

thanks to him..

I love you so much AbanG!!

Heaven is far far away...

But you make me feel as if i'm in heaven....

There's 2 more important man in my life..

Mi clumsy brother and mi Loh So Father..

Had been there when i need em'

haiz...

I miss those days when we all used to hang out together..

Hopefully we do it more often..

Cause I do want to spend more time with all my loved ones..

Catch up on all the things i'm missing out on..

Catch up on life and happiness i have lost..

These are all the people who make me feel so happy wherever iam..
Being there with me wen i meed them the most..
Precious people i never want to lose..
And i thank GOD for Giving me people Who care and stick by me..
Love all of you!!!!!
Muacks!!!

Changes..

yesterday was mi first nite at renal...

But before goin work i met mi baby!!!!

Haiz i miss him so much!!!!

I was shoo happy wen he asked to mit up..

we went to watch 30 Days of night

stupid sia scary..

then we go mum at Long John .. Ol time fav..

n guess wat...

time to go work.. Damn!!

Act Stab oni

I seriously Have no heart to leave...

Didn't want to...

Dunnoe wen i can see him next..

Poor pannikutty busy wif school and assignment

Wish i could help him..

Haiz i really really miss mi abang ah...

Waah.. Hmmm i Like!

So for mi 1st nyte...

Well it was ok ok...

Except i so fed up wif the MO, he kena scold from me..

Doctors ah.. Sometimes they do all the weirdest things..

Had 1 patient sent for urgent Dialysis n he is on oxygen..

halfway through sending the oxygen finish sia..

Damn!! Waah... i run like mad women pushing the heavy bed to the dialysis centre..

Then at female side got 1 patient collapse.

So sudden so ol of us kancheong sia..

oh well i started the cpr.. n not long later the doctor say no need resuscitate the patient..

I Love ur EyeS!

So sian.. 1st nyte oready like that..

hope mi 2 more nytes in peace...

I slept at 10 plus n woke up proper at 4..

keep having interrupted slp..

guess too tired..

ma legs are killing me...

today the ppl i working wif more f**ked up sia..

haiz...

i hope i survive..

Mi Prince Charming

~Prince JaaFaR~

See this monkey...

Luffing at me..

Ya la put cheese on mi face ryte..

Luff summore la..

I love to see him smile...

I love to see him dance!!

I love to Hear his voice..

I love to hear him nag.. So mcm nenek! hehe

I love to Smell him... Sho nice smell..

I love to just sit n look at the face..

I love everything about him!!

I LoVe HiM!!!

A Lot of times i wonder what life will be like without him

Sometimes i cry at just a thought Of "If" i was to Lose Him

I Don't want to..

How much this man have changed me...

Only Closest can see

Cause' the Pain in Me is Now set free..

I Love You so Much!!

And words Can Never Explain How much You mean to Me..

Life is Just sO different With You Beside Me..

mad hse

Today ward was a mad house!!!
Busylike crazy....
im so tired...
by the time i handover mi headache was killing me...
damn...
so damn tiring... haiz...
tmrw im gonna be on nyte...
worried...
juz hope i survive... i'm a survivor...

I hope my nytes go well..
ol im looking forward to is mi leave and mi chalet...
can't wait...

N i miss mi abang...
yesterday he came to fetch me... n i tot he was playing wen he said cool..
n there he was ryte outside mi staff room waiting fer mi..
shooo sweet...
hehehe
man was i happy to see mi chellakutty..
rombe rombe happy teriyuma!!!!'
hehe..
he follow me go faceshop the we go watch hitman...
then we go mum mum...
n i got no heart to go home...
i was tired.
i'm not feeling well..
i working morning the next day...
but as long as i see him n be wif him i feel so happy.. n ol the sickness fly away hehe

Abang the secret of my happiness...
i'm awaiting the day..
the day i can wake up to see his face n sleep looking at his face...
though i saw him yesterday i just miss him so much...
haiz how i wished he stayed next door...

haiz its ok... like he olways says... have to be patient....
Be patient... and 1 fine day u will recieve...
ala..... long way to go...

i think ah i wan to enlarge his picture n put near mi bed..
hmmm.. this sounds good...

ehehehe...
ya.... mad...
crazy in love...

Never thought love could be so sweet...

sick....

Its funny....

The worls is definately a scary place...

If u sit n think.. watch the news...
u will realise...
it's a scary place...
Things happen....


I am still shocked over something...
Cried for a whole day...
It has been a long time since i cried like that...
Cuz mostly smiles were spread on mi face because of love i have...

all i can say is i will b more alert..
wat happen makes me more aware n yes scared... still.. esp crowded place..
when i see too many ppl i get worried..
but when i cried everyone close beside me whol love n care for me feel very sad...
mi family stood supportive right by me..
mi brother n sister tryying to make me laugh...

My boyfren, he feels so helpless...
seriously.. there's nothing much he can do but just b there with me..
cuz he was not there with me durng the incident...
if he was i dun think anything ould have happened...

But he was there talking to me till i stopped crying..
cared for me..
worried for me..
n i feel sad that because of me he got so worried n upset...
ol i can say is i tell myself to stop thinking bout it n b happy n talk as per normal cuz i cant see mi boyfren feeling sad. and i know he was...
today i was much better than yesterday...
i talk as per normal...
each time i get reminded i think of mi bf n loved ones...

I promised to be a strong girl n take care of miself...
and so i shall..
not for me but for him...
cuz i love him.... so much...

Its ok... God is watching watever happens n 1 fine day he will definitely punish ppl like them...
All i want is to b happy n see my bf happy...
the reason for my smiles must not b sad
Cuz if he is sad or cries, so will I...

I wonder what i will do without him or my fren asmah hu was there n let mi sit n cry mi heart out..
I love You asmah... Mi twin...
I love mi abang.. Jaafar..
I Love mi mum, brother, sister n mi dad....
I Love Joan.....
At the end of the day these ppl who are part of my life show me love ... to keep moving on ahead...

So Much LOVE....
in this love i swim in... the tears will not last long..
they are juz momentary...