Xmas!!!

Once again the season of giving is here..
Xmas!!! a festival i love to celebrate...
Presents hhaha... Not because of that... but yea... the tree the weather frens n family visiting..
eating , yacking..
a joyful season i love to celebrate...

Oh well im on leave n hv been very busy since then...
running many places....
Did alot of shopping...
n I mean alot...
n i hvn finished...
Still got 4 more...
haiz...
Monday:
baked cookies ... not much la...
evryone eat rice after that too full to eat cookies..
Tuesday:
Did Murukku..
I went fer a dinner wif mi dance mates...
after tat spent a gr8 time dancing somewer...
Vodka... haha n drunk...
Still steady ah..
Wednesday:
Went to do xmas shopping...
this yr make things easier...
i just wrap the presents n let ppl pick la...
make mi life easier...
too many ppl coming so juz buy la...
Sorry Boys no presents...
Except for some ppl...
U will know hu u r wen u recieve...
Thursday:
Met grace n asmah...
We were supposed to do xmas shopping ..
but most o fthe time wasted as usual...
toking, crapping...
not fruitfu shopping...
Friday:
I went to mit indhu n we went to watch Kugan's drama....
it was reali nice...
a club scene...
He was acting as a pimp.. Haha..
Had a really gr8 time...
Saturday:
Mi Bday!!!
hehe... but did nothing special..
The !st person to wish me was indhu hehe... She sang mi bday song in slow motion...
funny...
After that was Hubby...
The most touching was from Ahmad!! His sms very touching... Really.... So well i saved it n i Got him a Xmas gift haha.. At first i tot dun buy... Oh well...
Wat to do... Iwas so touched...
Even mi bf oso never wish mi like that...
Aniway i went to tekka wif ma mum n help buy groceries..
Then got home changed n went tmp wif mi brudder to finish shopping
Fruiful Shoppin...
Bought the stuffs i need in a short time...
N so did mi money fly in a short time... haha Oh well Season of giving...
Then after that i went to mi Cousins Hse n pick mi niece up to mi hse...
Man i MIss mi 2 nieces n nephew...
They hv become rounder... Except mi nephew... still skinny n notti..
Aniway fetched mi niece to ma hse n she n mi bro put up the tree while i wrap the presents...
The tree looks beautiful...
Mayb cuz a kid was part of it ...
Went to bed at 2..
Today:
Woke up early... suppose to go temple but din..
Nid to go mi aunt hse pass some stuffs... then go to hubby hse...
then i dunnoe wat we're doing..
He kip saying he did something n its so romantic n i may cry...Dunnoe wat he's up to..
Ask him anithing he say watch porn if not sell drugs... haiz...
I dunnoe wat to wear la... So irritating...
K gtg ... shall update u guys if cried over his romantic stuff...
hehe

Merry Xmas!!!
N
Happy New Year!!

**cheeRs**
~nita~

MIA

Long time no update...
Very the busy wif werk la... not time to update..
oh well works the same..
Bonus is in!!!
wahhahaha..
Happy only..

Ahmad treated mi n hubby the other day...
MMM... yummy..
we go makan at pasir panjang n it was raining..

after that mad n nad went vivo city to go buy willy wonker chocolate ...
seems it was yummy then they buy fer both of us...
ahmad dun eat mi choccie!!
Wating to eat...

After that we went to city hall makansutra n eat loads of stuff... i couldn't finish...
haha
as usual...
after that we went walkathoning..
n i was sweating like shit..
good workout though hahaha

oh n by the way..
im on leave!!!
Wahaha but i hv to stay home to bake cookies , clean up the hse buy xmas present... shop fer mi brother, father n sista... n miself...
haiz alot of shoppin to do la...
Waiting to go shopping la...
aniways gotta go shop ryte now... n i hv baked 2 cookies today..
to be continued tmrw...

Chao

i wanna club...

Clubbing..
i miss...
the last time i went was the first time very relak...
juz drink vodka n sit down n watch ppl sing.. dance fer a short while n even then macam cant dance...
2 gals should not club alone la...

aniways.....
i met mi darling girls..
mi n jas met up first
we were walking arnd n window shopping n then follow up by gracie n we went to swensens n ate ice cream... this chocolate crumble... nice sia...
its in a saucepan.. wif hot caramel... crumble pie sweet n nice wif cold ice cream..
shiok sia..
yummy....
then patricia came along...
we eat n yack n yack...
on that day mi n hubby had a very big fight...
he was not in a good mood...
he wanted to mit mi n so in the end i juz got fed up n left mi frens to mit him...
that oso show ma face n take train...
i oso very pissed off...
i met ma frens almost a year later... cuz jas actually notes ol this down...
n we finalised that we definitely hv to try n mit at least every 6 months...

work was aa usual...
smooth going...
woke up late to werk that day hahaha...
take cab...
macam very rich..

That day ahmad,nad, lina farwan azlindah kumar n mi go makan..
ahmad belanja!!! finally seh..
if know he treat i would hv taken something more expensive
haha
we go makan at beach road..
fun sia...
toking cok n laughing..
time really flys...
gonna b one yr since i know hubby n his doverites gang...
u know... though i condemn dover so much cuz theres no shop n stuff i do miss goin to that place if i hvn been there fer a long time.. esp wen i nvr see the rest... so long nvr sit wif ol the dover members...
haiz...
ryte now hubby busy doing something fer mi bday...
so he tell mi not to disturb him haiz...

next week sat planning to go bumble bee...
ol those on favour say I...
aniway will go onli if good response if not i won't go la...
the next day werking sia.
k la i gonna go slp la... tired of werking hard
mi legs killing mi..

tmrw still wanna go out..
miss ma frens..
miss mi dance
miss indhu the panthu...
miss angels..
miss dancing like siaow
miss club..
miss ma nice patients..
miss schooling..
miss studying..
miss free time..
miss ma family time..
miss ma best fren..
miss hubby..

Good nyte

home...

today morning i went to mit ma best fwen near her hse to chit chat fer awhile ... then i came bak to bedok n met mam mum follow her go shop shop... bought HER WORLD
dunnoe fer wat.. haha aniway i saw something i like n im gonna buy it..
eyeshadows again hehe... like to collect them hehe

Came back home n im sitting wif cramps.... grrrr man it hurts..
chatting wif hubby on the fon n hey Viky speaks chinese hehe.. nice to noe..
n im being a good gal n staying at home... gonna watch vcd..
robin hood n Little man...

after i watch oready i gv ma review..
fer now im gonna bathe n go shop first to get stuff n come home watch cd...


this pic was taken last year wen we met quite some time after we started werking..
n i miss these gal...
frm left : patricia, Vivian , Jasmine , mi n Grace..
im gonna mit mi darling gals this thurs 5.30pm at bugis...
miss them...
can't wait to see them...

~nita~

restless...

I feel sad...
i dunnoe y i kip getting irritated...
maybe wen plans dun stick the same way n wen ppl kip changing plans... ya i got irritated..
he oso irritated n so m i...
laughin at mi wen i cried...
fer ur info that was not the reason i cried fer..
i was juz irritated.. nvm not ur fault...

im still goin out today...
but dun reali noe wat im gonna do after everyting..
hang arnd somewer...
argh...

mi fren mrng shift tmrw summore..
i feel lost sometimes... like a gal lost her way.. wen ppl dun understand u... n they think they do...
its times like these i wanna b left alone n not b asked fer explanations..

mi plan fer today..
i really dunnoe..
guess i'll try to hv fun...

feel like crap... wan to go slp fer awhile..

oh well hopefully wen i cut ma hair... mi head feels lighter...

chao

COMPETITION

FIRST comes first...
mi group is having competitions...
alot of other groups coming up
mi group coordination sucks...
so proud ah... but its the truth..
haiz... i wish it changes... still wish...
sometime i think it can never make it...
so irritated...
aniway mi n mi frens goin fer a dance competiton...
dancing is mi passion
n its been so long i hv gone fer competition..
its now or never...
i hope the best...
this is fer miself ...

and yesterday i went fer this 5C's course... 8.30 to 5.30
had loads of fun....
laughing n enjoying n learning...
it really made mi reflect back on how i behave n hv treated some of mi patients... though i was irritated wif them...
but i think i could hv been more patient n tactful...

Joan has found a bf!!!
really happy fer her...
i really hope he is the one...
it's so long she had a bf...

Juzilah still waiting fer the rite one..
Abang Sahar.... do u love her...
she is really a cute n sweet gal wif a really good heart...
everytime she giggles she makes an even angry person relax...
she may b big in size..
but she has a bigger heart..
i really wish she finds someone... i dunnoe how to matchmake her la...

n looks like another fren of mine is oso getting on well wif her new found frenship..

while at the other end singles are enjoyin themselves...
i do admit single life is really happening n u r free n happy..
miss those days...
not that i ahte it now..
i am still happy

khin broke up wif her 4 yrs bf because of distance ... she is a myanmar nurse werking in sinagpore... n her family are against this relationship...
fer very long she tried n she tinks this relationship will not workout...
n this is her first love....
so poor thing la she...
n she says she dun want another man in her life either...
cuz she says she will not b able to find a man like him again..
she wants to remain single n die thinkin of him...
its not a movie but real life...
she is nice n deserves tis... but...
haiz.. fate...
doesn't olways turn out the way we want...
thinkin that ur first love will last...
i noe wat it feels like..
cuz mine din...

aneeta... pca in mi ward oso single n happier now...
her's is different...
she loved the guy , he loves her to...
but he is not oni protective but he doesn't think before toking..
he has hurt her feelings time and time again...
n now seperated he wants her back cuz he realize wat he lost...
wats the point...
its too late...
n even if u say u change hu will try again...
wat if it happens again...
wat if tings never change...
can a person really change over a matter of days...
can they...
i really dunnoe...
the same wif mi ex guy..
wats the point of realising wat u lost after telling mi u dun nid mi animmore...
i hung on long things never change...
wen finally i say forget it n try to move on...
nothing...
wen i found someone else... then things happened..
problems after problems...
not only fer mi but oso fer mi bf now hu was then fren...
thru so much trouble we made it this far...
n im happy...
he stayed by mi till the end.. din leave mi alone to cry...
held mi tight n safe...
loved mi wif everything he had...
i went on wif him without loving him but one day i just fell in love... im loving him so much i dun ever want him to leave mi... ever...
it is wif his love that he showed mi that now i love him till today

i went thru alot in mi previous relationships..
so im a person hu has been so hurt..
n so scared of love n commitment
so scared wat if one day...
but i leave it ol to fate...

all i will say is i love him
n im thankful fer everything he evr did n i appreciate him...
fer always being there...

n though i hv hurt u so much..
wich imvery sorry fer...
I STILL LOVE U...

DON'T LEAVE ME K... pls..

we ol deserve to b happy..

N i think we ol deserve to b happy...
dun u think so...
i miss mi hubby many many...
he went kl... n finally he's back...
lucky i was bz wif performance...

friday was a big performance..
Rameshwara, Theestainers, Sangeshstraz
everybody were big time performers...
i felt like a small fry
mi grp has to like upgrade...
waiting fer the time...

mi bf cousin Nagen was the one hu kold us fer a performance...
realli happy cuz this was a freaking big show....
i really felt extra...
aniway...

the next day we performed at bishan..
and guess wat i saw mi fav singer hehe
n mi dance teacher toked to him n i got to tok to him...
dunnoe y so happy
siaow ryte...
but oh well...
he said the dance was good
n i met a few nice ppl...

really enjoyed mi performance...
and guess wat mi hubby is back n im on the fon ryte now fighting wif him...
but even in this min im still happy to hear his voice cuz thats how much i miss him...
though i realli dun wanna fight...
irritating n so i will update u guys next time why i say everybody deserves to b happy
cuz mi blog is not over yet
but i hv to stop now cuz he's complaining...
do i hv a choice
NO

now i gonna go fight wid him more...
haiz...

sleepy head..

3 nite shifts...
haiz n after mi last nyte shift went to indhu's place straight to get dressed fer a morning performance...
go there i was in fer a shock..
dun even ask..
n so after the performance
headed down to dover...
damn hell i cant slp...
was thinking so much of wat happened in the morning
in the end i was wide awake
later in the evening arnd 5 headed down to kallang
had a performance at kolam ayer cc
man i had fun wif the ppl there
maruskaz , singers ram , priya i tink the other gals.. mc thiru n deviyani
haha those ppl were gr8 backstage n supportive...
i owe ram a chocolate... well he screamed fer our performance hehe
marushkaz were damn gr8
they got the moves n energy!!
love their dance...
sometimes i wish i can do wat they do
not that i can't
but u nid a bunch of young ppl hu energetic
man i so wan mi own dance grp...
planning to
nid to cari dancers n trusted ppl
get the moves ryte n we're up fer a roll
ryte now i nid a male choregrapher to help mi wif choreographing
a guy to do remixing
n another to help mi fren indhu wif design
i nis a strong team n i can get the grp going
to open up a grp n make it big!
mi dream...
hope i make it someday

well our performance okie...
but the stupid rani in her own world...
dancing anihow...
irritating...
oh well gotta go slp
till next time
~nita~

mia

n im back..
yet again
due to ppl makin noise bout mi not updating im gonna try to update often... i say try ah...
no promises
oh well on nyte again...
damn sleepy
the best part... tmrw morning after werk gotta go perform n at 2 places
in the morning n evening n as a result
im not gonna get a gd slp...
but the good thing
thank god im onli goin back wer on tue
freaking tired...
the truth yesterday was not tat busy it was quite ok la...
pretty much free frm 2 plus...

body ache frm ol the dancing...
hehe secret...
been out
enjoyed the loud music
heart pumping
non stop dancing...
and as a result... mi leg freaking hell hurts
damn bad...
the sad part ol dressed so nice n v forgot to tk pics
haiz..
n i looked good
shameless hehe hu cares
cant wait to go again
dis time round gotta get the moves ryte cuz some ppl say i was killing reggae songs
but damn i dunnoe how to dance reggae


god noes how im gonna dance tmrw in ol mi sleepy stupor
yet later got to follow mi bf family go makan
n i just remembered im supposed to go mi best fren hse...
i totally forgot..
how ah..
im so tired...
nid to go 2 places
can i dun go aniwer but slp instead?
n im down wif the stupid flu - as usual

aniway...nid to get mi beauty slp...
i still gotta go out n get mi ass to work on time
alleluya....
i nid ol the luck
to survive...

then again...
i am a survivor
olways been

nytes

argghhh

i feel like giving up man..
im doin it again again n i can't atch the damn step n kip forgetting
shit la
how to perform like tat
sheesh
im goin crazy n very angry wif miself...
like i can nvr get it
i reali hope i catch up
oh i will juz gv up
oh i dun think i will
i will juz kip trying n trying till i gettit
wat to do
i nvr give up in dance
mi love n life
dance is one thing i will nvr gv up
hmmm...
6 moths hv passed so fast
haiz...
time reali pasts so fast...
n in trying to kip up
oh well im sleppy..
till next time i update mi blog
~nita~

dance dance

gosh i was juz flipping thru the channel n caught a glimpse of dance fever... the show sucks big time....
i think the ppl nvr watch reaaaaal dance....

anita so damn tired
i slept at 10 plus in the morning
got performance at 7 at parkway
gotta mit mi grp at 4.30 at eunos mrt
im up at 2
survivng in 4 hrs of slp n im so sleepy...
i hope the show dusn kok up sia...
scared
but i pray hard it turns out powerful
aniway gotta go get ready....
n werk after tat
i juz pray today i dun fall aslp at mi counter...
~nita~

nite nite...

man i should reali try n make more frequent entries...
aniway im on nite...
todays mi 2nd nite...
n im sleepy..
thank god i survived the nyte n din fall asleep at the counter...
man so many iv's to give... it like a never ending list sia...
but yea... nite shift more quiet...
but oso more sleepy..
mi n mi constant munching
today nite gonna work wif joan... mi darling en...
we r gonna rock the ward haha ryte...
2 sleepy heads eating n giggling...
aniway tmrw is mi performance... sheesh dunnoe hoe im gonna wake up...go fer dance n still make it fer work...
i pray hard i dun knock off...
hopefully mi bf wakes mi up on time...
man... but i shall still dance well...
then go like dead dog to work...

oh well u gain some n lose some... meaning mi slp fer performance...
n i reali should lose that extra pounds....

n now im gonna go get more slp before i go werk
tata

anita returns...

goin to temple on mondays...
feel peaceful...
much peaceful...

2 of mi staff goin to critical care unit...
new badge gradyates out... thank god they r ppl we noe...
the previous badge of students.... now ol graduated
n its already 1 yr since i started...
mc again... olways sick
dunnoe wats goin on wid mi body...
sick chicken.. fever 39.2

reali sian...
aniway dance is good
though i think ,more new n fast steps will b good i cant reali say much
oh well
its the oni thing kips mi together

will b goin back to work on thurs..
can i pls stop falling sick...
haiz....
but mi mind feels a little more at ease...
hopefully everything is ok olready...
though the fear is still there
everything gonna b olrite i think...

gonna go rest...
miss the old anita but i hv a feeling she's returning soon

~nta~

wats wrong wid mi? i wish i knew..

at a period of time ... i had been having performances after performances...
drained mi out but i had fun n i was kept busy...
then i took a break n met up wid frens...
each time i move on some tngs happen to bring mi down...
loads of shit at workplace
tat drains mi oready... mentally n physically...
frens hu went missing...
but reali... i dun bother... cuz the close ones are olways there wid mi eventually
n mi bf is there... every tear i shed he wipes it away... if not he cries wid mi... i thank god fer givin mi a person hu tolerates all the anger i vent...
a person hu loves mi much more than i love him... im trying mi best to appreciate wat i hv.. n not to turn back n think bout past...
difficult..
after so much of problems... i just needed the break... went out in a happy mood 2 mit mi 2 frens...
guess hu i saw at outram mrt...
mi first bf...
the one i loved so much n waited like a fool
the one hu was sick... the bastard...
he din recognize mi..
until i juz stood there n stared at him fer so long... his half smiling face turned to juz a face trying to think wat to do next....
he din approach mi n say hi either... expecting mi to tok...
the more i saw him the more angry n sad i felt...
i noe better then to stand ther n let him see mi cry...
so i turned away n walk down the escalator n he jus stood there
before i knew it tears wich i hv been holding on fer so long juz started coming...
i jus cried till i told miself to stop...
why should i cry over a jerk... hu onli made mi cry everytime...
every single time...
n then mi day was gone... its hard to hold a smile..
lucky thing another fren was ther... he started making us luff...
even couldn't concentrate on mi dance
went to find mi best fren...
we ended up toking n in the end she was crying fer mi as well...
i made her worry...mi best fren hu olways was there to listen to mi... i oni go to her wen i reali can't tk it cuz i dun wan her or ani one else to worry bout mi...
but i reali appreciate tat isma juz stood by mi...
eventuali...i juz told miself to let go but wen im alone...
thoughts do come back..
fears...
mistakes...
anger..
sadness...
if i can oni turn back time...
i wish i never met the person named solomon in mi life ever...
the name of a king...
but a character of a jerk...

mi first dance performance

yesterday was mi performance....
one at bukit panjang a small event...
the other was at jurong west n tat was a wild event
happening n gd food n bigger stage compared to the miniature stage at bukit panjang!
tat first one mi performance was a disaster...
the second was happening though
reali enjoyed the croiwd support
but so damn tiring la
i was morning shift... took mi bath at the hospital
ran down to ttsh n tried the costumes
trial practice..
then wore make up n change into costumes as we were getting late... took cabs in the end 3 cabs in one day
freakin shit....
aniway its ol over...
mi upcoming performance is comin fer the next 2 wks saturdays..
busy women ha...
i like it!!

wat!!

got a phonecall to tell mi there's a show tmrw!!
how the hell m i gonna dance in this state.. i barely walk straight
summore at jurong cc....
i reali woudn't mind if im in gd health but reali uneasy esp wen im reali down wid mi sick...
dun feel good... reali dunno if i can make it tmrw... well got to try i guess...
the worst thing is if tmrw reali performance i nid to go little india get some stuff n collect mi costumes n go fer dance practice after tat
haiz...
reali dunnoe how,,, juz pray hard i dun faint or anithing
or mi mum will kill mi fer not listening to her
God bless mi
hehe i nid tat... alot..

will i ever recover?

sick sick....
i go back werk today then i ended up vomitting wen i reach ward
in the end go staff clinic n 2 more days mc...
stupid sick... barely ate fer 3 days...
since start of yr till now very bad luck...
haiz... tings after tings happen..
: (
reali sick n tired of all the shit goin on mi life
it juz never ends
each time i think it does, it starts again...
so many things to settle
arghhh
the oni thing wich kip mi goin is mi stress reliever in mi life .. dancing
cant wait to go up on stage n perform...
miss those days..
dancing olways been mi passion.. hopefully ol goes well
i hope i settle the problem at werk
scary position...
haiz...
GOD save mi
help mii....
ur mi ONLY saviour

ppl change

ppl change...

fer gd or fer bad
i dun reali noe wats goin on n wats happening
i dun reali wat to do
im like so confused

was sick yesterday... the whole day having fever
hit to 39.7
finally dropped today...
but mi mouth got the medicine taste
haiz... tmrw go werk
dance practice sommore...
hopefully i get ol well soon

waa... frm 31st jan to 30th march

waa... after so long later then im makin an entry,,
no wonder mi best fren olways asking mi to update mi blog..
so well i just finished 4 days nite... n juz got back, had a bath n now online..
tired... very actuali.. put mi on bed n i will go into hibernation mode.. hehe
well yesterday mi pt pass away due to liver cancer.. poor guy oni.. 49 yrs old..
n he has 2 teenage children..
he was a nice man as far as i rmbr him
haiz... never had pt pass away in mi shift before so was not very sure wat to do.. but everything went well
well i enjoy doin nite shift... u noe y..
its much more peaceful.. not relaxing ah! i still hv loads of werk to do but its more peaceful as in quiet... i dun hv students, collegues, sisters, relatives n esp doctors walking arnd and in n out n causing a lot of commotion.. its more quiet n i dun hv to see the ppl i dislike faces...
haiz u noe i wish in a way that i get to do permanent nyte...
i dun mind the extra cash though it can b very tiring... but i like the whole nite shift thing...
hmmm... c wer it goes..so wats goin on in mi life... alot actually...made a lot of frens.. n havin loads of fun n stress..
aniway wats love?? i dun belief in true love so wat the heck... juz go wid da flow
its nice having to guys chase u at the samt time but sadly its gets confusin n tiring
i dunnoe wer mi future lies... im leaving it to fate.. the last time i trusted a man it ended up in shit... so i dun wanna tk a chance again

the big problem is....
mi hp bill is like shit...
n i gotta do something bout it fast...
haiz... dunnoe how i wan to pay ol... aniway goin to ctrl frm now on.
money more impt then chattin wid ppl
its getting higher n higher
haiz ...
how nice if money grows on tree... i wish
k im getting very sleepy i tink im gonna go slp
zzzzz
till the next time i update
~adios~

this time round.. im the patient

finally... i got discharged frm hospital today...
i was warded at w78 rm 31/1...
yes i became a patient...
i started to get bumps all over mi 4 limbs... it spread over the limbs... n it was freaking painful... can't walk nor stand nor sit.. moving around is difficult because of the pain...
i went to work still but on sat 28/1/06 can't tahan... went staff clinic to seee doctor... doctor dunnoe wat is wrong with mi.. n said its unusual.... referred mi to go a&e... the doctor diagnose mi as query erthyma nodumes.. a skin problem... a symptom triggered by something frm mi body.. can b tb.. viral infection... anithing.... at first they refused lemme go home... they said wait till all the bumps subside.... n til they find out the trigger factor... i was getting irritated fer stayin in hospital like an idiot... n at nite i always feel so lonely... nobody there.. family n fren all go home...
wan to cry... till i started crying yesterday to mi fren that iwant to go home...
sounds stupid but well no one will understand wat its like unless ur in mi position... having a sickness caused by dunnoe wat... n can come back again...
i feel like a diseased women...
haiz..... i jus hate being hospitalised...
being alone...
well mi frens visited mi n im so touched they came....
well... being hospitalised made mi see things in a patients point of view... n i felt wat they felt.. the worry they have...
i was pratically worrying every single day n nite weneva im alone....
every nite i had oni 1 question... wen i will get to go home...
surprisingly the doctor lemme go home on the account that im a staff nurse there n should b able to tk care of miself... anithing come back to see them... i was so happy i was like jumping wid joy...
i packed all mi things.... n got discharged wen mi dad n brudder came...
i came home.. so happy to b home alas....
nuthing like home....
i dun eva wan to get hospitalised again.....
im on mc till 7th feb... hv to come back fer appointment..
hope this skin problem goes away...
as long as i dun get admitted again...
praise the LORD...

sick chicken

i can barely move today..
generalised weakness n pain on movement...
yesterday whole day flu..
today i can barely move... damn painful.. took mc..
feel bad.. this mth alone i took 2 mc oready...
but if i go to werk i cant werk fast.. i will b like moving slow motion.. move pain.. sit oso pain.. walk pain...
mi father bring mi to the doctor...n he got the cheek to tell mi mum i walk like an old lady...see la... expect mi to fly i tink..
now feelin abit drowsy frm the meds...
i 4gt wat i wanted to type...
i hope mi ward sista dun think i ponteng fer fun...
tat will b fun.. but nah.. i not so bad
if i do to others wait one day others will do back to mi
haiz... i shall go lie down n stay in that position n try not to move..
damn hopefully i can walk tmrw.. n not like a constipated old lady..
someone... massage mi can....
: (

sick again

how many times can a human being fall sick...
i tink im 1 fool hu olways so suai fall sick...... esp wen i v lucky get long days off.... haiz...
flu as usual... man mi nose hurts frm sneezing..
suppose to mit mi best fren to go watch movie... but been sneezing the whole morning n i feel so giddy wen i go down to shop fer awhile...
so in the end i had to cancel it... so sad...
haiz....
y must i fall sick...
y.....
tmrw must go back werk.... soo sad...
haiz...
i wonder if mi best fren is angry wid mi fer not miting her
aiya i v tired n sian... body paining sneeze n sneeze...
i wan to go cut mi hair n highlight la..
haiz......
k la i v sian sick.. n staying at home.....
tmrw werk oready... god noes wen mi next off...
hope mi sick goes away....
: (

4 days off

4 days off... 3rd day.. walking to 4th..
damn bored today... stay at home...
not active enuf to run out today..
yesterday i went to watch i not stupid 2... so damn touchin... mi n mi fren indhu crying away hehe n funny oso...
then after that mi n mi fren went tekka mit up her frens... jeff n julie... funny la.. we were kachau'in them away... having loads of fun.... joking...so nice to kip in touch wid old fren.... must go out again ...
tmrw last day off... : (
i dun wan to go back to work.....
haiz...

have a nice day....

moral of the story.. help urself before helping others... finish our own work first then help others... mi collegue always ask mi help him while he does his things... in then end... i lose out.. i stay back tilll so late to finish mi work.... well this time round mi work comes first... gv them a dose of their own medicine...n wat happens... i finish mi work on time n can even go break...
well yea i finish work on time... still can relak sia... fuyo... hehehe happy...
i went out mi cousin n niece... so fun... i happy happy hold mi niece hand n we swinging our hand n walking... hehe we go eat at kfc.. then tok n tok... go mi house cuz mi cousin nid to print somethings... reali nice time spent together
yeay i 4 days off... go back to work on tuesday hehe so happy.... no nid to see mi patients... take a good break... so much of problems at work... can't take it.. now mi time to relax n breathe.. i hope by the time i go back the patient not there...
haiz..
the start of the year... so many problems.. fights wid patiets n ppl u love.. decisions made... maybe good or bad.. as long as it kips mi happy n im not crying animore...alot of things learn... a lot of messages sent... sadness n newfound happiness
ppl hu come frm noewer... n actuali make u feel happy n loved n soon enuf u just tell urself to let go of past n move on... i hv moved on frm one phase to another... start life aqgain n not to dwell on the past... not worth it... cuz thats wat kip mi frm moving on...
n now its mi turn to b happy n let ppl kip mi happy... cuz im tired of doin all the harwork but treated like shit in the end...
maybe sometime somethings r not meant to be..
n every ending is a new beginning... i hv found a beginning... im happy fer now...n i hope it remains this way..
cuz i dun wan to cry animore...

i hope the year dun suck

i having lots of problem at work... patients creating trouble... complain against mi... cry so much.. n im wondering y the hell m i crying... wasting mi time rite n tears...
go to work like zombie..
then wen i think i goin to try n move on... i have another problem...
ended up cyring again... shit la starting of the new year n cry.. shit...
i wan to b happy.... n im goin to try... i just hope i get over all this unwanted shit!!! GOD pls help mi..
but well n im feeling happier... n try to kip miself happy...

new year resolution

mi new year resolution..
to b HAPPY
guess its bout time i knock sense in mi head n stop feelin sad...
n well... im feelin happy... confused n angy with other things... but apart thatt yea im happy...
dunnoe feelin happy n jus wanted to say that..
hmm.... its a new year n a new beginning.. n i will relive mi life!
here i go....