patients vs patience

fer 2 days i overall in charge... mi patients take turn to bug the hell otta mi... so much nonsense.. feel like murdering them.. now mi 2 cubicles all ortho patients n full of nonsense patients!!!
2 drug abusers hu half the time tok rots n irritate mi...
1 juz did op n has so much of complians n nags worse than a woman...
he will do stupid things then tell mi he bleeding la .. pain la...
hu ask u move so much after major op in the leg...
another will lie down there n wants to be seved like his a king
another i think wants to b a part time nurse... ownself connect n disconnect his antibiotics... go n off plug himself claiming its not straight... n wen i told him off he say its a small matter... all the more i feel like takin the biggest needle to poke him... then he noe the pain of settin plug... bum!
he is not suppose to walk cuz the bone is very weak n gonna cause him a fracture n the op site to bleed.. tell him so many times... stubborn man... kip walkin ... then i just tell him.. "later bleed u dun come to mi"
irritating rite u tell them dun do then they do... then bleed find missy..
he goin fer another op n oready say cannot eat he go n eat biscuit la drink water la... then wen tell him cannot... he telling mi can like as though he docotor!!! nonsense la he want to die ine the op table issit!!
they dunnoe wat they r doin to themselves...
another hongkee fella hu is a big time pain in the ass... refuses to go home..
but he oni complains bout the doctor.. but bugs our life...
n last but not least the jungle man... we all call him that cuz he is a dirty fella hu never takes hiz bath.. n stinks big time
complain of pain but the minute wan to smoke no pain ...
complain of pain then wen gv medicine say dun wan
if not sometime crawl like sadako out of his bed
one of the noisiest patients... then again,, most of mi patients noisy
sometimes they make mi sp issed off i feel like crying
they behave like its a market!!!
haiz im trying very hard to show patience towards them
but seriously all i wanna do is murder them...
ahgghhh!!!!
lucky i off tmrw... frens comin over... hope they dun lay mi out.. i will murder them hehe
well tmrw is another day.. thank god no work
im goin on nite soon ... i shall wat gonna happens hpe i hv fun...
merry xmas n happy ner year guys

do they noe its xmas time at all..

hey whadya noe.. xmas is in the air..
on the 25th the day was fun n mi house was pack n hot ... mayb too many ppl thats y..
mi frens came
so happy to see em'
but man was it tiring doin the entertainin
cut mi bday cake
yes ppl im 21
wow n prezzies hehe
but go work
was afternoon n overall in charge
but okie the day past well
tmrw oso oops i mean today... its oready 12.40..
afternoon shift
though i was pretty much disappointed wid someone fer not coming
i realised its no point getting angry
hu is he anyway...
wateva f*** la.. got no comments..
try to enjoy life
21 oready.. mus do something
but dunnoe wat la
hehe fer now
enjoy xmas!!!
n new year juz around the corner...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY...
mi new year resolution :
to be happy.

better to slp

i guess its better to slp at home next time...
i went shoppin today...
seriously.. its difficult to find a dress i like... way beyond mi budget to spend that much on a dress..
ended up buyin some sphagetti blouse...i dunoe i like it cuz its simple n mature... at that point wen i buy it seriously jus looked nice n a must hv... take it back home n i got the complains... takin turns to tell mi how low it is.. it doesn't look that low to mi though... i guess i shall burn it..
haiz throughout mi years oready i listen everything... at a point of time ppl grow up n try diff things... mayb i should juz stick to wearing t-shirts..
they bttr not complain animore then
want mi to look womanly... but this cannot that cannot...
aiya wateva..
ask mi buy skirt ... i buy... short??
go to all the shop the skirts r freaking short okie!!! unless i buy long skirt...
to mi it dusn look short... aiya dunnoe la... i dun wanna shop animore..
i think im stickin to jeans n t- shirts n long sleeves...
soon i will wear like the muslim ppl (no offence). cover everything up...
cannot stay out late... cannot overnite.. no to chalet..
canot wear this... cannot club... cannot cannot cannot
frustrating...
y did i even bother...
might as well sleep... much better....
now i must change wat i want to wear fer xmas... i think i noe.
buy a freakin t-shirt
lets see hu complains then

4 more days to xmas

man 4 more days n i hvn finish mi shopping la!!! suppose to go celebrate a fren bday... like shit the person wen missing as usual... wateva f ***.
then i had a backup plan noe'in these things happen... sadly it backfired.. mi fren stuck at work...
n now raining...
i nid to shop n nobody free
n im dead tired...
4 more days to xmas n im not prepared....
worst i actually can sit here bothering to wait fer mi fren to kol mi out fer his bday... wasting mi time...
wan to slp but too tired to slp... n mind too busy thinking shit as usual...
achievement fer today... i set plug n took blood..
aiya im trying to ammuse miself..
wat bothers mi the most rite now is
unfinished shoppin... i yet to buy mi xmas clothes..
haiz.. then after that go back work n yes im spending new year in hospital... nite shift! count down in the hospital...
well something diff n new n can't b helped..
i wish i was out shoppin... wasted mi good time entertaining ppl
damn it...
n well 4 more days fer mi to finish mi work...
got 2 shop fer xmas presents n clothes
clean mi cupboard
clean mi shelf n bed
clear away all mi junk
wrap the presents
put up the tree
n still hv fun on mi bday amongst all this...
well i'll survive... somehow

another meanin to life?

wat hv i been up to?? nuthin juz work
today i was so dead bored n everybody not free to mit mi so i made plans diff... i brought mi mum out fer a movie (i dun do that often by the way)
we went to watch the DESCENT. scary!!! it scared the shit outta mi... damn... but the movie nice.. din reali get the moral of the story till mi bro told mi the moral.. its bout animals hu stick by fer one another n hv compassion but humans behave compassionless n animal like
i do agree... that many of us r like that...
sadly
i met mi ex patient... hu is the one patient hu i did care alot fer.. he has quite a sad story n suffered alot of pain throughout the hospitalisation n a very very nice patient...
n happy to see him discharged after almost 3mths of hospitalisation
saw him on mi way to work... happy to see him get on well..
i nvr forget those times he was olways in pain n even times wen he gives up wants to suicide.. i feel happy that i did manage to tok positive thinkin n that rite now he is livin much better...
its such small tings we do that help others that create meaning fer the job im doin...
n i dunnoe if i will ever continue this job or leave it... seeing how stressful it gets n no one appreciates u fer the fact....
which can drive mi nuts n think its a shit job...
rite now mi life??
i have no plans.. i dunno wat the hell im gonna do in the future..
wer to go ... wat to do..
i reali dunnoe
rite now its juz frens n work n family
i work like crazy.. hang out wif frens wen im free... wat else??
i reali hv no plans.... meaning to life???
dunnoe used to hv a meaning to life..
now i juz want to search the meanin n dun waste time feelin sad..
now not as sad but well... still not sure wat i want in life...
or wat i want to do...
n shit im goin to b 21.. haiz growing older...
n i hv yet to discover meaning to life..
i counsel ppl well but a sad case hu dun live by wat she taught others...
i wish i start doin that..
n i wish i know wat to do with mi life...

do u noe the meaning of BORING!

thats wat im feeling rite now... bored!!!
chattin online wid mi frens.... so damn bored...i dun even noe wat to write cuz theres nuthing to write....
so there... mi boring blog entry fer today... how exciting...
im still bored...

no worries no worries

haiz.... today morning shift... i do 1 big dressing until back pain...
tmrw off. so happy...
but dunnoe wat im gonna do though..
macam no life
haiz... boring.... argh!!!!! reali bored la... dunnoe wat to do to spice up mi life
ideas somebody!!! go work come home bathe eat n slp.. wen free go makan wid fren or watch movie... nuthing new... hmm... mi ward busy as usual... i so scared they take mi over to renal.. i dun wan go... cuz got alot indians at mi surgical... scared they take mi over that side... i pray they dun.. if they do i will cry... reali....
haiya dun tok about work always stressful...
but if i start tokin bout mi life then i oso get stressed...
aiyo... no difference....
hmph... do wat tmrw??
watch movie i guess... how "excitin"..
must go cycling.. i wonder if i still rmbr how to cycle...
hmm... mus kip miself busy... if not i too stress till i hv to go imh
eh there are nurses go imh ( as patients )...n i dun wan to be 1 though... must enjoy life till the last minute.. hu noes skali the next day i die.. dun wan die wid regrets... so moral of the story dun waste time getting sad n crying jus kick ol the stress n worries n b happy..
no worries no worries..
i wish i followed that advice... i will try though.Have to.