im tired... physically n mentally

im feeling so tired..... i feel like goin on hibernation mode.. sleep n not wake up....tired...graduation is in 2wks time...reali looking forward to it... now i m gonna b workin shift so no more sat n sun off... i wonder y im a nurse...i wonder how long i hv to wait till i get an ans...waiting is so so tiring.. maybe thats y im tired.. think too much... im so bored... lazy go work...today i pratically juz slept... mi mum's bday today.. thats y so good stay home... tmrw tot wanna go out... but seems like everybody is too busy... well they hv a life...time pass either too fast to cope or too slow that i dread every second....if only i can rewind back mi 3 yrs i would not take up nursing.. maybe a 8 to 5 job so that i can still kip up with mi social life.... do something....im tired... so moral of the story... dun think too much....i need something to happen to boost mi energy level....
i nid redbull in life...

wat shld i do?

i hate being depressed...i hate feeling lonely... i hate it wen ppl say they will call but go missing... i hate it wen ppl say things they never meant...i hate it wen they leave u in the lurch in times of trouble.. i hate it wen the world turns upside down... i hate it wen i dunnoe wats goin on.. i hate it wen i dunnoe wat to do... i hate it wen ppl make mi cry...i hate it wen i can't stop crying...i hate it wen ppl u trust breaks ur trust.. i hate it wen im being made use of fer personal gains... i hate it wen i can never find a solution to problems.. i hate it wen i kip getting problems after problems...i hate it wen u can find peace...i hate having a burden in mi heart.... hate it wen i can't face up to mi problems...i hate trying to be happy wen im not...i hate it wen i bother but the other dusn't give a 'F'.. i hate it wen others b happy after causing mi pain... i hate wats happenin rite now... i hate being helpless... i hate not knowing wats happening....i hate being miserable...i juz hate beind so sad n not able to lift miself up.. i hate it wen ppl juz kip hurting mi again n again... y is this happening...suddenly i hate mi life...
i never felt like this before...
and i hate this feeling.................
hate it even more that i can't make all this go away!