restless...

I feel sad...
i dunnoe y i kip getting irritated...
maybe wen plans dun stick the same way n wen ppl kip changing plans... ya i got irritated..
he oso irritated n so m i...
laughin at mi wen i cried...
fer ur info that was not the reason i cried fer..
i was juz irritated.. nvm not ur fault...

im still goin out today...
but dun reali noe wat im gonna do after everyting..
hang arnd somewer...
argh...

mi fren mrng shift tmrw summore..
i feel lost sometimes... like a gal lost her way.. wen ppl dun understand u... n they think they do...
its times like these i wanna b left alone n not b asked fer explanations..

mi plan fer today..
i really dunnoe..
guess i'll try to hv fun...

feel like crap... wan to go slp fer awhile..

oh well hopefully wen i cut ma hair... mi head feels lighter...

chao

COMPETITION

FIRST comes first...
mi group is having competitions...
alot of other groups coming up
mi group coordination sucks...
so proud ah... but its the truth..
haiz... i wish it changes... still wish...
sometime i think it can never make it...
so irritated...
aniway mi n mi frens goin fer a dance competiton...
dancing is mi passion
n its been so long i hv gone fer competition..
its now or never...
i hope the best...
this is fer miself ...

and yesterday i went fer this 5C's course... 8.30 to 5.30
had loads of fun....
laughing n enjoying n learning...
it really made mi reflect back on how i behave n hv treated some of mi patients... though i was irritated wif them...
but i think i could hv been more patient n tactful...

Joan has found a bf!!!
really happy fer her...
i really hope he is the one...
it's so long she had a bf...

Juzilah still waiting fer the rite one..
Abang Sahar.... do u love her...
she is really a cute n sweet gal wif a really good heart...
everytime she giggles she makes an even angry person relax...
she may b big in size..
but she has a bigger heart..
i really wish she finds someone... i dunnoe how to matchmake her la...

n looks like another fren of mine is oso getting on well wif her new found frenship..

while at the other end singles are enjoyin themselves...
i do admit single life is really happening n u r free n happy..
miss those days...
not that i ahte it now..
i am still happy

khin broke up wif her 4 yrs bf because of distance ... she is a myanmar nurse werking in sinagpore... n her family are against this relationship...
fer very long she tried n she tinks this relationship will not workout...
n this is her first love....
so poor thing la she...
n she says she dun want another man in her life either...
cuz she says she will not b able to find a man like him again..
she wants to remain single n die thinkin of him...
its not a movie but real life...
she is nice n deserves tis... but...
haiz.. fate...
doesn't olways turn out the way we want...
thinkin that ur first love will last...
i noe wat it feels like..
cuz mine din...

aneeta... pca in mi ward oso single n happier now...
her's is different...
she loved the guy , he loves her to...
but he is not oni protective but he doesn't think before toking..
he has hurt her feelings time and time again...
n now seperated he wants her back cuz he realize wat he lost...
wats the point...
its too late...
n even if u say u change hu will try again...
wat if it happens again...
wat if tings never change...
can a person really change over a matter of days...
can they...
i really dunnoe...
the same wif mi ex guy..
wats the point of realising wat u lost after telling mi u dun nid mi animmore...
i hung on long things never change...
wen finally i say forget it n try to move on...
nothing...
wen i found someone else... then things happened..
problems after problems...
not only fer mi but oso fer mi bf now hu was then fren...
thru so much trouble we made it this far...
n im happy...
he stayed by mi till the end.. din leave mi alone to cry...
held mi tight n safe...
loved mi wif everything he had...
i went on wif him without loving him but one day i just fell in love... im loving him so much i dun ever want him to leave mi... ever...
it is wif his love that he showed mi that now i love him till today

i went thru alot in mi previous relationships..
so im a person hu has been so hurt..
n so scared of love n commitment
so scared wat if one day...
but i leave it ol to fate...

all i will say is i love him
n im thankful fer everything he evr did n i appreciate him...
fer always being there...

n though i hv hurt u so much..
wich imvery sorry fer...
I STILL LOVE U...

DON'T LEAVE ME K... pls..

we ol deserve to b happy..

N i think we ol deserve to b happy...
dun u think so...
i miss mi hubby many many...
he went kl... n finally he's back...
lucky i was bz wif performance...

friday was a big performance..
Rameshwara, Theestainers, Sangeshstraz
everybody were big time performers...
i felt like a small fry
mi grp has to like upgrade...
waiting fer the time...

mi bf cousin Nagen was the one hu kold us fer a performance...
realli happy cuz this was a freaking big show....
i really felt extra...
aniway...

the next day we performed at bishan..
and guess wat i saw mi fav singer hehe
n mi dance teacher toked to him n i got to tok to him...
dunnoe y so happy
siaow ryte...
but oh well...
he said the dance was good
n i met a few nice ppl...

really enjoyed mi performance...
and guess wat mi hubby is back n im on the fon ryte now fighting wif him...
but even in this min im still happy to hear his voice cuz thats how much i miss him...
though i realli dun wanna fight...
irritating n so i will update u guys next time why i say everybody deserves to b happy
cuz mi blog is not over yet
but i hv to stop now cuz he's complaining...
do i hv a choice
NO

now i gonna go fight wid him more...
haiz...

sleepy head..

3 nite shifts...
haiz n after mi last nyte shift went to indhu's place straight to get dressed fer a morning performance...
go there i was in fer a shock..
dun even ask..
n so after the performance
headed down to dover...
damn hell i cant slp...
was thinking so much of wat happened in the morning
in the end i was wide awake
later in the evening arnd 5 headed down to kallang
had a performance at kolam ayer cc
man i had fun wif the ppl there
maruskaz , singers ram , priya i tink the other gals.. mc thiru n deviyani
haha those ppl were gr8 backstage n supportive...
i owe ram a chocolate... well he screamed fer our performance hehe
marushkaz were damn gr8
they got the moves n energy!!
love their dance...
sometimes i wish i can do wat they do
not that i can't
but u nid a bunch of young ppl hu energetic
man i so wan mi own dance grp...
planning to
nid to cari dancers n trusted ppl
get the moves ryte n we're up fer a roll
ryte now i nid a male choregrapher to help mi wif choreographing
a guy to do remixing
n another to help mi fren indhu wif design
i nis a strong team n i can get the grp going
to open up a grp n make it big!
mi dream...
hope i make it someday

well our performance okie...
but the stupid rani in her own world...
dancing anihow...
irritating...
oh well gotta go slp
till next time
~nita~

mia

n im back..
yet again
due to ppl makin noise bout mi not updating im gonna try to update often... i say try ah...
no promises
oh well on nyte again...
damn sleepy
the best part... tmrw morning after werk gotta go perform n at 2 places
in the morning n evening n as a result
im not gonna get a gd slp...
but the good thing
thank god im onli goin back wer on tue
freaking tired...
the truth yesterday was not tat busy it was quite ok la...
pretty much free frm 2 plus...

body ache frm ol the dancing...
hehe secret...
been out
enjoyed the loud music
heart pumping
non stop dancing...
and as a result... mi leg freaking hell hurts
damn bad...
the sad part ol dressed so nice n v forgot to tk pics
haiz..
n i looked good
shameless hehe hu cares
cant wait to go again
dis time round gotta get the moves ryte cuz some ppl say i was killing reggae songs
but damn i dunnoe how to dance reggae


god noes how im gonna dance tmrw in ol mi sleepy stupor
yet later got to follow mi bf family go makan
n i just remembered im supposed to go mi best fren hse...
i totally forgot..
how ah..
im so tired...
nid to go 2 places
can i dun go aniwer but slp instead?
n im down wif the stupid flu - as usual

aniway...nid to get mi beauty slp...
i still gotta go out n get mi ass to work on time
alleluya....
i nid ol the luck
to survive...

then again...
i am a survivor
olways been

nytes