this time round.. im the patient

finally... i got discharged frm hospital today...
i was warded at w78 rm 31/1...
yes i became a patient...
i started to get bumps all over mi 4 limbs... it spread over the limbs... n it was freaking painful... can't walk nor stand nor sit.. moving around is difficult because of the pain...
i went to work still but on sat 28/1/06 can't tahan... went staff clinic to seee doctor... doctor dunnoe wat is wrong with mi.. n said its unusual.... referred mi to go a&e... the doctor diagnose mi as query erthyma nodumes.. a skin problem... a symptom triggered by something frm mi body.. can b tb.. viral infection... anithing.... at first they refused lemme go home... they said wait till all the bumps subside.... n til they find out the trigger factor... i was getting irritated fer stayin in hospital like an idiot... n at nite i always feel so lonely... nobody there.. family n fren all go home...
wan to cry... till i started crying yesterday to mi fren that iwant to go home...
sounds stupid but well no one will understand wat its like unless ur in mi position... having a sickness caused by dunnoe wat... n can come back again...
i feel like a diseased women...
haiz..... i jus hate being hospitalised...
being alone...
well mi frens visited mi n im so touched they came....
well... being hospitalised made mi see things in a patients point of view... n i felt wat they felt.. the worry they have...
i was pratically worrying every single day n nite weneva im alone....
every nite i had oni 1 question... wen i will get to go home...
surprisingly the doctor lemme go home on the account that im a staff nurse there n should b able to tk care of miself... anithing come back to see them... i was so happy i was like jumping wid joy...
i packed all mi things.... n got discharged wen mi dad n brudder came...
i came home.. so happy to b home alas....
nuthing like home....
i dun eva wan to get hospitalised again.....
im on mc till 7th feb... hv to come back fer appointment..
hope this skin problem goes away...
as long as i dun get admitted again...
praise the LORD...

sick chicken

i can barely move today..
generalised weakness n pain on movement...
yesterday whole day flu..
today i can barely move... damn painful.. took mc..
feel bad.. this mth alone i took 2 mc oready...
but if i go to werk i cant werk fast.. i will b like moving slow motion.. move pain.. sit oso pain.. walk pain...
mi father bring mi to the doctor...n he got the cheek to tell mi mum i walk like an old lady...see la... expect mi to fly i tink..
now feelin abit drowsy frm the meds...
i 4gt wat i wanted to type...
i hope mi ward sista dun think i ponteng fer fun...
tat will b fun.. but nah.. i not so bad
if i do to others wait one day others will do back to mi
haiz... i shall go lie down n stay in that position n try not to move..
damn hopefully i can walk tmrw.. n not like a constipated old lady..
someone... massage mi can....
: (

sick again

how many times can a human being fall sick...
i tink im 1 fool hu olways so suai fall sick...... esp wen i v lucky get long days off.... haiz...
flu as usual... man mi nose hurts frm sneezing..
suppose to mit mi best fren to go watch movie... but been sneezing the whole morning n i feel so giddy wen i go down to shop fer awhile...
so in the end i had to cancel it... so sad...
haiz....
y must i fall sick...
y.....
tmrw must go back werk.... soo sad...
haiz...
i wonder if mi best fren is angry wid mi fer not miting her
aiya i v tired n sian... body paining sneeze n sneeze...
i wan to go cut mi hair n highlight la..
haiz......
k la i v sian sick.. n staying at home.....
tmrw werk oready... god noes wen mi next off...
hope mi sick goes away....
: (

4 days off

4 days off... 3rd day.. walking to 4th..
damn bored today... stay at home...
not active enuf to run out today..
yesterday i went to watch i not stupid 2... so damn touchin... mi n mi fren indhu crying away hehe n funny oso...
then after that mi n mi fren went tekka mit up her frens... jeff n julie... funny la.. we were kachau'in them away... having loads of fun.... joking...so nice to kip in touch wid old fren.... must go out again ...
tmrw last day off... : (
i dun wan to go back to work.....
haiz...

have a nice day....

moral of the story.. help urself before helping others... finish our own work first then help others... mi collegue always ask mi help him while he does his things... in then end... i lose out.. i stay back tilll so late to finish mi work.... well this time round mi work comes first... gv them a dose of their own medicine...n wat happens... i finish mi work on time n can even go break...
well yea i finish work on time... still can relak sia... fuyo... hehehe happy...
i went out mi cousin n niece... so fun... i happy happy hold mi niece hand n we swinging our hand n walking... hehe we go eat at kfc.. then tok n tok... go mi house cuz mi cousin nid to print somethings... reali nice time spent together
yeay i 4 days off... go back to work on tuesday hehe so happy.... no nid to see mi patients... take a good break... so much of problems at work... can't take it.. now mi time to relax n breathe.. i hope by the time i go back the patient not there...
haiz..
the start of the year... so many problems.. fights wid patiets n ppl u love.. decisions made... maybe good or bad.. as long as it kips mi happy n im not crying animore...alot of things learn... a lot of messages sent... sadness n newfound happiness
ppl hu come frm noewer... n actuali make u feel happy n loved n soon enuf u just tell urself to let go of past n move on... i hv moved on frm one phase to another... start life aqgain n not to dwell on the past... not worth it... cuz thats wat kip mi frm moving on...
n now its mi turn to b happy n let ppl kip mi happy... cuz im tired of doin all the harwork but treated like shit in the end...
maybe sometime somethings r not meant to be..
n every ending is a new beginning... i hv found a beginning... im happy fer now...n i hope it remains this way..
cuz i dun wan to cry animore...

i hope the year dun suck

i having lots of problem at work... patients creating trouble... complain against mi... cry so much.. n im wondering y the hell m i crying... wasting mi time rite n tears...
go to work like zombie..
then wen i think i goin to try n move on... i have another problem...
ended up cyring again... shit la starting of the new year n cry.. shit...
i wan to b happy.... n im goin to try... i just hope i get over all this unwanted shit!!! GOD pls help mi..
but well n im feeling happier... n try to kip miself happy...

new year resolution

mi new year resolution..
to b HAPPY
guess its bout time i knock sense in mi head n stop feelin sad...
n well... im feelin happy... confused n angy with other things... but apart thatt yea im happy...
dunnoe feelin happy n jus wanted to say that..
hmm.... its a new year n a new beginning.. n i will relive mi life!
here i go....