damn nursing!!

i wonder if im getting paid to get scolding!!! wat the hell.. after mi annual leave n im goin back to ward today... tot it was gonna b a gr8 day.. yea rite.. hu m i kidding... nonsense..
it was all gr8 until at about 6 plus wen mi collegues patient's son walk up to mi n asked if his father has gone fer an operation... n then i juz replied it has been cancelled.. he asked mi why but i can't explain y cuz i dunnoe y... i did not take the kol n im not in charge of him n im not updated about him so i realli dunnoe y.. i said im not sure but i will ask mi collegue to tok to him.. n he started yellin at mi... refusing to let mi tok.. he kept yellin n making scene n i din noe wat the hell to do... luckily mi fren from the other cubicle help mi sort it... even then he is not v pleased... wen she n i go to the tearoom n ask mi collegue to tok to him cuz its more better fer him to explain to him.. but he refused to do so.. he was sleepin n claimed its his break... so !!! does that mean its okie fer him to hv his breakin while i bloody hell take the rap...worse still no one kol n told the patients son it was cancelled... mi fren helped mi to settle it n i juz apologized that i reali could not ans him..mi fren did not want mi to get a complain letter fer something i din do so she helped mi... bless her good heart.. but im so angry wid mi collegue hu refused to help mi n juz wanted to cover his backside...
ii was so irritated i went fer break.. force miself to eat.. then i told miself im taking the full break... i felt so down n moody after that...
then wen i went back out n served medications... mi another patient hu is mentally ill scolded mi in vulgarities fer nuthing...
he kept shoutin chibai.. trust me.. man i was temted to ask him y his mother dun hv issit... rude but wat the hell...
he kept yelling at mi until i pass report finish... he say u shut up.. dun tok to mi n make nmi fed up.. he reali crazy.. one minute he joke wid mi n so nice.. next minute he yell at mi.. n the worst thing is i orady served his psychaitric medicine oready n he is like that.. i wonder if he ate it or threw it away.. cuz if he dun take it thats wen he goes bonkers...
i felt like beatin him up... it reali spoils mi mood.. n i felt very depressed..
i got scolded fer nuthing...
is this y i joined nursing.. to get f**ked by patients! m i even gettin paid fer all this shit im taking!!! im juz so irritated that i feel like quittin this job... i m counting down 3yrs... i can't do this fer life... cuz at the end of it i will become mentally ill n stressed out!
tmrw i morning shift n have to face it again... God noes wats goin to happen tmrw... juz bring mi thru the day n im thankful..

bloated...

i ate so much today... n i was suppose to be dieting.. haiz...
i went to mi cousin house today n saw mi 2 nieces n nephew... v cute.. they hv grown up alot... one lost weight n the other two put on... had fun .. then mi n mi cousin go walk walk around hougang mall n chattin bout life n laughin at ppl... a peaceful day n most of the time spent yackin n jokin...
today is mi last day of annual leave n im goin back to work tmrw... hmm sad... i wanted to slp more... i noe im being a pig.. lazy la..
happens.. if u work like mi
but waitin fer mi off on wed n thurs..
work... so much politics... i hate it wen ppl put a luffin face but do the otherwise.. damn them.. nvm ... i will survive..
jus look forward to off i guess... haiz... work tmrw... i dun wan to go!!!!
drag miself to work... n now im gonna go slp.. n face mi tiring life again..
here i go again...

weighty issues

n mi sista n brudder r fighting at the back.... nonsense... i dun like it wen ppl throw tempers.. sadly i realise i do that to...
man i gotta grow up in that sense....
but throwin tantrums is good... ppl will noe u r angry n juz buzz off... i dun do that to everybody thou... mi frens dun reali c this side of mi.. mayb cursin n swearin yes... but not tantrums... onli do it to mi loved ones... hu else can we do this to hehe ( n im proud of that) hehe
im on annual leave n i can't believe that im actualli siitin at home... again ... today...
go tekka (again) haiz....
i jus realised today that man i put on an awful lots of weight... n its startin to piss mi off... im gonna lose weight again even if mi gastritis pain kills mi.... thanks to wonderful attention of painkiller... okie if mi fren read this they will definitely murder mi wen they see mi...
they say i look a healthy person now unlike last time i look anorexic.... did i?? i dunnoe... i miss those days wen mi tummy were flat... n fats were less visible... the day i met mi one fren... i started bloatin... frn 44kg to now a 49kg... i took gr8 pains to lose weight frm 56kg to 44 kg... n now i puttin on....
cannot cannot... must lose weight... n i shall.. wen i do i shall publicise hehe.... i hope im not becomin crazy...
i sit at home i kip thinkin of certain things i dun wanna think of...
but if i wanna go out i get nagged at
past few dayss so stressed out until i juz wan to go somwer n release all this stress....
haiya... if god has a hp i will definitely call him n ask the ans to mi questions.. questions i nid ans to fer a long long time...
cuz moving on is not that easy after all... n i wan to move on
but i can't~

im back....

im on annual leave...
im SUPPOSED to b enjoyin but im rottin at home... y?
cuz mi best fren is down wid tonsils
mi close fwen in thai trainin
mi other fren all workin shift...
every1 so busy.... so m i wen im workin la...
so happy to b out of ward fer now...
so chaotic n busy... nvr finish work
so fast time past... i work fer 5 mths oready...
how much i saved... nuthin much
i wonder wat i do wid mi pay la.... last time broke now oso broke
hehe
mostly because of mi stupid hp bill
at work kena nag by the oldiesin the ward.. work wid em v the f***in stress
esp gt 1 old lady.... i wonder do all single womean become like her
so grouchy
she rarely smiles n if she does she looks even more freaky
n she has a face of a bull dog la..... realli...
but she can b helpful thou ... depends on her mood... it changes at a blink of eye.. thats y i stay far... very very far away frm her
i wonder hows ward? hows mi pt...
but i dun miss ward... so tiring go work
im counting down 3 yrs,.... definitely runnin away
i wish i din join nursing..
but some times i feel proud to b a nurse wen i achieve something
but its till a job which will send mi to grave.... not easy n stressful
so much politics.... ol i noe is nvr trust anione but urself
at home mi parents nag at mi to do housework n learn cookin
mi stupid fren can force mi to learn cookin.. say i mus go the house n lern frm the mother....
y muz i learn cookin!!!! learn n cook fer hu
mi mother kip sayin cook fer mi husband in future,,, hu say i gettin married?
i miself dunnoe if i will get married...
will i ? onli god noes..
then thers the thing bout saving money...
im tryin.... reali tryion.. jus dunnoe y it finishes at the end of the month
hehe
save fer hu? mi future weddin... wat oni...
mi parents reali tryin to get mi to b responsible... but too bad they kip tryin n i kip runin... i will b responsible if i ever find the nid to
i will commit to such things wen thers a reason
i dun hv a reason to do all this fer now
savin ya okie its a must fer rainy dasy... the rest.... c how
firstly let god show mi wer mi path of life is headin n get5 mi ans to questions i nid then i wil decide.. till then i will enjoy...
now wan to enjoy but no fren to accompany.. how...
aiya the best thing now is slp...